So sorry its been SO long since i last posted! Hubby finally got home the day before Halloween and after a LONG wait that day we got him that evening after 6pm. The kids were SOOO excited when they saw him. it was really great.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
a BIG FUNNY!!!
Just try reading this without laughing till you cry!!!
Suggestion : Go Pee Before Reading this!!!!!
Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this:
Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety....??WAY TOO COOL!
Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button.Nothing!I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arc of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. AWESOME!!!
Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave. Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn't be all that bad with only two triple-A batteries, right? There I sat in my recliner, my cat Gracie looking on intently (trusting little soul) while I was reading the directions and thinking that I really needed to try this thing out on a flesh & blood moving target.
I must admit I thought about zapping Gracie (for a fraction of a second) and thought better of it. She is such a sweet cat. But, if I was going to give this thing to my wife to protect herself against a mugger, I did want some assurance that it would work as advertised. Am I wrong? So, there I sat in a pair of shorts and a tank top with my reading glasses perched delicately on the bridge of my nose, directions in one hand, and taser in another. The directions said that a one-second burst would shock and disorient your assailant; a two-second burst was supposed to cause muscle spasms and a major loss of bodily control; a three-second burst would purportedly make your assailant flop on the ground like a fish out of water. Any burst longer than three seconds would be wasting the batteries.
All the while I'm looking at this little device measuring about 5' long, less than 3/4 inch in circumference; pretty cute really and (loaded with two itsy, bitsy triple-A batteries) thinking to myself, 'no possible way!'
What happened next is almost beyond description, but I'll do my best...? I'm sitting there alone, Gracie looking on with her head cocked to one side as to say, 'don't do it dipshit,' reasoning that a one second burst from such a tiny little ole thing couldn't hurt all that bad. I decided to give myself a one second burst just for heck of it. I touched the prongs to my naked thigh, pushed the button, and . . HOLY MOTHER OF GOD . . WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION . . . WHAT THE HELL!!!
I'm pretty sure Jessie Ventura ran in through the side door, picked me up in the recliner, then body slammed us both on the carpet, over and over and over again. I vaguely recall waking up on my side in the fetal position, with tears in my eyes, body soaking wet, both nipples on fire, testicles nowhere to be found, with my left arm tucked under my body in the oddest position, and tingling in my legs?
The cat was making meowing sounds I had never heard before, clinging to a picture frame hanging above the fireplace, obviously in an attempt to avoid getting slammed by my body flopping all over the living room.
Note: If you ever feel compelled to 'mug' yourself with a taser, one note of caution: there is no such thing as a one second burst when you zap yourself! You will not let go of that thing until it is dislodged from your hand by a violent thrashing about on the floor. A three second burst would be considered conservative?IT HURT LIKE HELL!!!
A minute or so later (I can't be sure, as time was a relative thing at that point), I collected my wits (what little I had left), sat up and surveyed the landscape. My bent reading glasses were on the mantel of the fireplace. the recliner was upside down and about 8 feet or so from where it originally was.
My triceps, right thigh and both nipples were still twitching. My face felt like it had been shot up with Novocain, and my bottom lip weighed 88 lbs. I had no control over the drooling. Apparently I pooped on myself, but was too numb to know for sure and my sense of smell was gone. I saw a faint smoke cloud above my head which I believe came from my hair. I'm still looking for my nuts and I'm offering a significant reward for their safe return!!
P.S. My wife loved the gift, and now regularly threatens me with it! If you think education is difficult, try being stupid.
Suggestion : Go Pee Before Reading this!!!!!
Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this:
Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety....??WAY TOO COOL!
Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button.Nothing!I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arc of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. AWESOME!!!
Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave. Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn't be all that bad with only two triple-A batteries, right? There I sat in my recliner, my cat Gracie looking on intently (trusting little soul) while I was reading the directions and thinking that I really needed to try this thing out on a flesh & blood moving target.
I must admit I thought about zapping Gracie (for a fraction of a second) and thought better of it. She is such a sweet cat. But, if I was going to give this thing to my wife to protect herself against a mugger, I did want some assurance that it would work as advertised. Am I wrong? So, there I sat in a pair of shorts and a tank top with my reading glasses perched delicately on the bridge of my nose, directions in one hand, and taser in another. The directions said that a one-second burst would shock and disorient your assailant; a two-second burst was supposed to cause muscle spasms and a major loss of bodily control; a three-second burst would purportedly make your assailant flop on the ground like a fish out of water. Any burst longer than three seconds would be wasting the batteries.
All the while I'm looking at this little device measuring about 5' long, less than 3/4 inch in circumference; pretty cute really and (loaded with two itsy, bitsy triple-A batteries) thinking to myself, 'no possible way!'
What happened next is almost beyond description, but I'll do my best...? I'm sitting there alone, Gracie looking on with her head cocked to one side as to say, 'don't do it dipshit,' reasoning that a one second burst from such a tiny little ole thing couldn't hurt all that bad. I decided to give myself a one second burst just for heck of it. I touched the prongs to my naked thigh, pushed the button, and . . HOLY MOTHER OF GOD . . WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION . . . WHAT THE HELL!!!
I'm pretty sure Jessie Ventura ran in through the side door, picked me up in the recliner, then body slammed us both on the carpet, over and over and over again. I vaguely recall waking up on my side in the fetal position, with tears in my eyes, body soaking wet, both nipples on fire, testicles nowhere to be found, with my left arm tucked under my body in the oddest position, and tingling in my legs?
The cat was making meowing sounds I had never heard before, clinging to a picture frame hanging above the fireplace, obviously in an attempt to avoid getting slammed by my body flopping all over the living room.
Note: If you ever feel compelled to 'mug' yourself with a taser, one note of caution: there is no such thing as a one second burst when you zap yourself! You will not let go of that thing until it is dislodged from your hand by a violent thrashing about on the floor. A three second burst would be considered conservative?IT HURT LIKE HELL!!!
A minute or so later (I can't be sure, as time was a relative thing at that point), I collected my wits (what little I had left), sat up and surveyed the landscape. My bent reading glasses were on the mantel of the fireplace. the recliner was upside down and about 8 feet or so from where it originally was.
My triceps, right thigh and both nipples were still twitching. My face felt like it had been shot up with Novocain, and my bottom lip weighed 88 lbs. I had no control over the drooling. Apparently I pooped on myself, but was too numb to know for sure and my sense of smell was gone. I saw a faint smoke cloud above my head which I believe came from my hair. I'm still looking for my nuts and I'm offering a significant reward for their safe return!!
P.S. My wife loved the gift, and now regularly threatens me with it! If you think education is difficult, try being stupid.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
The Waiting Game
The Waiting Game SUCKS!! seriously, just send my hubby home now! this limbo stuff is crazy!! He's due home any time, but apparently not today :-( I can keep holding my breath for tomorrow.....
I love ya honey!!
Kids are more than ready to have daddy back too. I know I'm more than ready to be a 2 parent household again.
MWAH my love!
I love ya honey!!
Kids are more than ready to have daddy back too. I know I'm more than ready to be a 2 parent household again.
MWAH my love!
Cute Pics!
Sams Club does awesome with these pics!! kiddos were a little crabby, but they still came out cute!
SingSnap!
Now i have found this new addiction.. like i needed more, right?? but its called SingSnap, and its (to me) like online Karaoke! and OMG its a blast!! i can't sing, but i do try! And i have a blast, so who cares! they dont' have alot of the songs I've tried to sing, but they've got a decent amount. I've done a few... lol. DO NOT feel obligated to go look, to listen or even to be nice about it. LOL. don't' be mean though. i don't' need it, i know i cant' sing. LOL
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/ba108afb3
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bbe6d4f5
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bfc7ba29
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bce57cd9
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c4f33501
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/b7f62b51
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c311ff419
my friends little man did this one - http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c3c2d829 he's awesome!! (and 8!)
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/ba108afb3
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bbe6d4f5
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bfc7ba29
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/bce57cd9
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c4f33501
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/b7f62b51
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c311ff419
my friends little man did this one - http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/c3c2d829 he's awesome!! (and 8!)
WMYSTHE!! Wow, My Readership Seems To Have Exploded!
676 views, eh? nice! I'm sure its due to my acro buds! Hi Guys!!! I just love playing with Y'all! You keep me up too late, but eh, its a blast!! (most of the time!) I just feel bad, i tell people to come look and then i stop posting!! ha ha! oh well, I've been stressing out and being lazy!
But, i will do better (its my mantra, i try!) i keep saying, i need to blog about this or that, then i sit down at the computer and get sucked in. LOL.
But, i will do better (its my mantra, i try!) i keep saying, i need to blog about this or that, then i sit down at the computer and get sucked in. LOL.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Busy Busy
Okay, so one of the reasons that i don't blog as often as i should is that I'm a procrastinator (aka lazy, sorry for those that do procrastinate, but that's just me)
On the other hand are the kids. Lets put it this way, since i started typing this, I've been up 2 times to stop them from whatever they are trying to destroy. :-)
Last week alone, After the party, my in laws were here (thank you Memere & Pepere!), then an hour after they left my parents came (thank you mom and dad) and they were here till Wednesday. In this time, we ran around alot and played Wii alot, lol. Of course, Aric decided that this was the time to begin to get sick.
He hadn't been in daycare since the Friday before and started getting a cold on Monday night and it got worse Tuesday and i got him seen on his birthday (yeah... BOOO, lol) He was pronounced with an upper respiratory infection (aka cold here, he gets at least one a month here fun fun - NOT) and a viral rash from that. I took him to care on Thursday and they called me back and sent him home saying that he had a rash that looked like he was getting hand foot and mouth. I explained to them that he had a rash that had been there for 4 months and he was going to dermatology for it next week (i.e. this week) well, they said well, ok, bring a note saying the doc looked yesterday and it will be ok. So i called and waited till they said yes, we have a note for you just come pick it up. so i got ready to go pick it up and the daycare called back and said he had to go home now. GRRRRRRRRRR..
Wednesdays and Fridays are normally time i take for me. that week it had gotten re-arranged cause Aric's birthday fell on a wed and i didn't think it was fair to take him on his birthday. By this time it was 330, aric had only been in care a few hours and i had only gotten one work out in. no real time for just chilling out like i like. Guess I'm glad i didn't' go to a movie!! (i WILL this week though!!)
So i picked him up and he was a grump, i figured at this point to take both kids cause i was already aggravated and didn't need to worry about being late to pick up Lizzie. Probably not the best course of action, as they were both ramped up and just pushed and pushed and pushed, plus the fact that i was arguing with the clinic about who Aric's doc was and why he needed to be seen, etc... i was pretty much ready to run away from home, trying to not reduce into a small ball in the corner and cry. blah.
The next morning i got him an apt, got Lizzie taken to daycare and went for the wait at the docs. Well, he was pronounced with hand foot and mouth disease. but only on his toes and an eczema type rash on his thighs... and he couldn't go back to daycare till Monday. So i took him to the nail salon with me and got my nails done a pedicure and my eyebrows done (they did it too small past my arches, grr) he was cranky and crabby, which made me the same. Then we picked up Lizzie and she wanted to tell mommy how it was and it was a long night. lol. Those are nights i need a buddy to hang out with, but everyone was busy, so i just called an old friend and talked to some on line buds.
On the other hand are the kids. Lets put it this way, since i started typing this, I've been up 2 times to stop them from whatever they are trying to destroy. :-)
Last week alone, After the party, my in laws were here (thank you Memere & Pepere!), then an hour after they left my parents came (thank you mom and dad) and they were here till Wednesday. In this time, we ran around alot and played Wii alot, lol. Of course, Aric decided that this was the time to begin to get sick.
He hadn't been in daycare since the Friday before and started getting a cold on Monday night and it got worse Tuesday and i got him seen on his birthday (yeah... BOOO, lol) He was pronounced with an upper respiratory infection (aka cold here, he gets at least one a month here fun fun - NOT) and a viral rash from that. I took him to care on Thursday and they called me back and sent him home saying that he had a rash that looked like he was getting hand foot and mouth. I explained to them that he had a rash that had been there for 4 months and he was going to dermatology for it next week (i.e. this week) well, they said well, ok, bring a note saying the doc looked yesterday and it will be ok. So i called and waited till they said yes, we have a note for you just come pick it up. so i got ready to go pick it up and the daycare called back and said he had to go home now. GRRRRRRRRRR..
Wednesdays and Fridays are normally time i take for me. that week it had gotten re-arranged cause Aric's birthday fell on a wed and i didn't think it was fair to take him on his birthday. By this time it was 330, aric had only been in care a few hours and i had only gotten one work out in. no real time for just chilling out like i like. Guess I'm glad i didn't' go to a movie!! (i WILL this week though!!)
So i picked him up and he was a grump, i figured at this point to take both kids cause i was already aggravated and didn't need to worry about being late to pick up Lizzie. Probably not the best course of action, as they were both ramped up and just pushed and pushed and pushed, plus the fact that i was arguing with the clinic about who Aric's doc was and why he needed to be seen, etc... i was pretty much ready to run away from home, trying to not reduce into a small ball in the corner and cry. blah.
The next morning i got him an apt, got Lizzie taken to daycare and went for the wait at the docs. Well, he was pronounced with hand foot and mouth disease. but only on his toes and an eczema type rash on his thighs... and he couldn't go back to daycare till Monday. So i took him to the nail salon with me and got my nails done a pedicure and my eyebrows done (they did it too small past my arches, grr) he was cranky and crabby, which made me the same. Then we picked up Lizzie and she wanted to tell mommy how it was and it was a long night. lol. Those are nights i need a buddy to hang out with, but everyone was busy, so i just called an old friend and talked to some on line buds.
So, while yes, a quiet week for some of you, this was just alot in a few days.
well, i gotta go, rushing out the door, kids are crabby, but i think they'll be fine once we get to the play date. i still gotta shower!! lol. later!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Ok, My Tattoo. :D
Since i said I'd post, I'm posting, LOL. Yes, i got a tattoo, 2 weeks ago, and i love it. I waited 12 years, well, waited is not right... i put off for 12 years cause I'm a wuss. But after thinking about it and talking to my hubby about it, i decided that i could do it. So, i did it. I got it on my lower back, just above my rump. its a heart with squiggles, it hurt SO BAD, lol. But I'm glad i did it.
Okay, with out further ado, here it is.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Just a Quick Post
Well, my little man is 1. And sick. Of course, poor thing, if its not one thing with him, its another. His party went good, not many people came, but it filled our living room, his memere and pepere were there as well as some really good friends. The next day one set of grandparents left and the other arrived.
My parents came and they brought the mother load. Toys from one end of the house to the other. it was INSANE. :D. It was a great visit, didn't even get any grief when my tattoo was discovered. (yes i got one, I'll do another post later)
We played the Wii and just had fun. They go to bed WAY earlier than i do, so i just watched TV and played acro upstairs.
We were supposed to go to Niagara Falls today, but with Aric sick and under the weather, we have a Dr appt instead. Parents are gone now, and i have to leave soon to take the kids to the doc. I'm sure they hate to see me coming. LOL.
Anyways, i hope you are all having wonderful days and I'll be sure to write more soon.
My parents came and they brought the mother load. Toys from one end of the house to the other. it was INSANE. :D. It was a great visit, didn't even get any grief when my tattoo was discovered. (yes i got one, I'll do another post later)
We played the Wii and just had fun. They go to bed WAY earlier than i do, so i just watched TV and played acro upstairs.
We were supposed to go to Niagara Falls today, but with Aric sick and under the weather, we have a Dr appt instead. Parents are gone now, and i have to leave soon to take the kids to the doc. I'm sure they hate to see me coming. LOL.
Anyways, i hope you are all having wonderful days and I'll be sure to write more soon.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Has It Been A Year??
Wow, its so hard to believe its already been almost a year! Aric will be 1 next Wednesday. He went from a preemie (only 3 weeks) at 7lbs to the 26lb little man i have crawling all over. Its amazing the difference in him and Lizzie. I am just in awe that I've been giving such great blessings in my kids (and my hubby) and know how blessed I've been.
I am giving him a simple party on Saturday, just here at the house, invited a few people from church, and his daycare and such. of course, i kept forgetting to bring the invites. (so stinking blonde some days!!) so i will have to send out email invites.... grrr. After the party, I'll add some pics.
I am just amazed and in awe.... yeah, i know, i keep repeating myself. (its my MUSINGS) He refused baby food till he was 8 months. then only haphazardly ate it, refused a sippy till he was 11 months, then embraced it completely. He's on sippys only, no formula, straight milk and loves table food. Can eat a whole Mac N Cheese kids meal from burger king. (yes, amazing!) and has a love of life and people. Smart and stubborn (aren't we all?) and wants what he wants when he wants it. LOL.
Well, i need to get to cleaning!!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
late night update
being that its late and I'm tired, just a quick update on us.
We got back from Vacation around the 1st and have been trying to recover from our vacation. Kids did well, i stressed more than i needed to. California was pretty, saw my dad, his wife and some good friends. Had a blast for the most part. :D
Just passed my birthday, cant' believe I'm 33... when did i get this age? I'm not old, just surprised. lol. My great friend Melissa took me to see the Day of Fire/Chris Daughtry concert. It was awesome, i absolutely had a blast. Got my pic taken with the singer, Jeff, from Day of Fire. I heard them in concert 4 years ago when we lived in NC. They are still awesome and rocking. :D
Just gearing up now for my little guys' 1st birthday. I cant' believe he's almost 1, just seems like yesterday i was pregnant and couldn't' wait for him to come. :D He's soo smart and so big.. Trying to grow up faster, he's pulling up on everything (especially me) and cruising now. he's let go and stood for a fraction of a second a few times now, but he's just not sure how it works yet. He'll get it soon. :D He's had fluid behind his ears since July and just not been a happy camper on and off over that. Still trying to convince his doc of that. She put him on antibiotics this time, we'll see... this is only his 2nd time on them and he's been sick most of his little life. blah! Oh, and I'm also working on weaning from formula to milk and from bottles to sippys.
Lizzie is doing well, potty training and her aren't' going as easy as it seemed to at first. she's content in panties, but will not do #2 in the potty, she'll do #1 all day, as long as she's not distracted, but that cursed #2 has really done me in. Today i gave up and put her in panties all day, as i just couldn't' handle following her around and asking if she's gotta poop! lol. she's still been told to go in the potty. She wants her panties, but i told her she's gotta learn to go in the potty, then she can have her panties back. we'll see....
I did something to my shoulder while in CA, and its been hurting since we got there (well, within a day or two) so i FINALLY went to the docs for it before my birthday, and finally started physical therapy this week. Apparently, i have a cramp in my shoulder (and now arm too) that's not getting relieved, so its always cramped. Sometimes i have relief and feel fine, then it cramps back up and I'm nearly doubled over in pain. blah! hope it works itself out soon!
OK, its bed time now, nite!
We got back from Vacation around the 1st and have been trying to recover from our vacation. Kids did well, i stressed more than i needed to. California was pretty, saw my dad, his wife and some good friends. Had a blast for the most part. :D
Just passed my birthday, cant' believe I'm 33... when did i get this age? I'm not old, just surprised. lol. My great friend Melissa took me to see the Day of Fire/Chris Daughtry concert. It was awesome, i absolutely had a blast. Got my pic taken with the singer, Jeff, from Day of Fire. I heard them in concert 4 years ago when we lived in NC. They are still awesome and rocking. :D
Just gearing up now for my little guys' 1st birthday. I cant' believe he's almost 1, just seems like yesterday i was pregnant and couldn't' wait for him to come. :D He's soo smart and so big.. Trying to grow up faster, he's pulling up on everything (especially me) and cruising now. he's let go and stood for a fraction of a second a few times now, but he's just not sure how it works yet. He'll get it soon. :D He's had fluid behind his ears since July and just not been a happy camper on and off over that. Still trying to convince his doc of that. She put him on antibiotics this time, we'll see... this is only his 2nd time on them and he's been sick most of his little life. blah! Oh, and I'm also working on weaning from formula to milk and from bottles to sippys.
Lizzie is doing well, potty training and her aren't' going as easy as it seemed to at first. she's content in panties, but will not do #2 in the potty, she'll do #1 all day, as long as she's not distracted, but that cursed #2 has really done me in. Today i gave up and put her in panties all day, as i just couldn't' handle following her around and asking if she's gotta poop! lol. she's still been told to go in the potty. She wants her panties, but i told her she's gotta learn to go in the potty, then she can have her panties back. we'll see....
I did something to my shoulder while in CA, and its been hurting since we got there (well, within a day or two) so i FINALLY went to the docs for it before my birthday, and finally started physical therapy this week. Apparently, i have a cramp in my shoulder (and now arm too) that's not getting relieved, so its always cramped. Sometimes i have relief and feel fine, then it cramps back up and I'm nearly doubled over in pain. blah! hope it works itself out soon!
OK, its bed time now, nite!
movies movies and more movies
The Hulk - Edward Norton replaced Eric Bana as the hulk. I was very skeptical at first at the switch, as Eric Bana is WAY sexier than Edward Norton. lol. But, he did awesome in the role. This movie seemed to have more of a "comic bookish" feel. Almost feels like a whole new cast. It was well scripted and well done. I took my son with me, i think he was 9 months at the time. :D But anyways, go see it, lots of action, adventure and violence.
I Know Who Killed Me - Lindsay Lohan, Julia Ormond, Neal McDonough.
Aubrey shows up in the hospital with lots of bruises cuts and blood. She'd been missing, and her parents were so happy to have her home, that even when she said she wasn't Aubrey but Dakota, they just figured that she was just confused. Action, Suspense, Gore, but very good.
PS I Love You - Hilary Swank, Gerard Butler, Lisa Kudrow, and Gina Gershon
Soon before her wedding, a young lady's fiance dies and leaves her alone. Suddenly she started receiving letters, notes and packages from her husband, post mortem. All of this she lives for and only this as she gets on with her life, not moving on. A very wonderful movie that i watched soon after my hero deployed, made me bawl for the whole movie. I'd watch it again in a heartbeat.
Baby Mama - Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, Greg Kinnear, Dax Shephard
Unmarried unattached woman decides its time for a baby, going through the normal channels and trying to get pregnant with artificial insemination, decides that hiring a surrogate will solve her problems. She definitely gets more than she bargained for with Angie, an extreme free spirit who agrees to be her "baby mama". Very Funny movie and oh so worth seeing over and over.
The Mummy - Tomb of the Dragon Emperor: Brendon Frasier, Jet Li, Maria Bello, John Hannah
New place, new mummy. Rick O Connell's son is now a treasure hunter as well and is in China. He finds the find of his life, as his uncle and parents come to see it. Of course, the mummy is released and its up to the family to fight it. Definitely done different this time, but still very good and well worth watching.
Hancock - Will Smith, Charlize Theron, Jason Bateman, Eddie Marsan
A not your average Superhero, wants to just be left alone. Some twists and turns, definitely worth watching. Great movie. :D
Mamma Mia - Meryl Streep, Julie Walters, Stellen Skarsgard, Colin Firth, Pierce Brosnan
Based on the Broadway musical of an engaged daughter preparing for her wedding and wanting the father she never knew to walk her down the aisle. She finds her mothers diary and finds that she has 3 possible fathers, so she invites all 3, certain she'll know when she sees him.
It was a good movie, i would say great, but in this day and age, there always has to be a "shock" value to any movie, regardless of musical or not. This annoyed me, so it didn't' get a great rating from me. Aside from that 20 minutes it was great. :D
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull - Harrison Ford, Shai LeBeouf, Cate Blanchett
Typical Indiana Jones movie, its wonderful. Lots of Action, Adventure, and surprises. Definitely worth seeing on the big screen (if its still out where you are) but still worth seeing on any screen. Indiana is working at the college where he's from, his close personal friend and dean says that due to his recent activities that he's been under suspicion and the government is putting pressure on him to fire him. On his way out of town, he meets up with Mutt, who makes him a deal - help him with a personal mission, and he could very well find one of the biggest archaeological finds, the Crystal Skull of Akator.
Yes, I've watched a bit of movies the last few months... just now getting them taken care of though. :D last one for now
Tropic Thunder - Ben Stiller, Jack Black, Robert Downey Jr.
A bunch of actors are taken into a real life war zone, unbeknownst to them.
Supposed to be a comedy, but its just horrible... no other way to put it.. Raunchy, disgusting, insulting (to everyone at one time or another), sacrilegious, idiotic... i went into this movie expecting the best... i got the worst, starting with the trailers that they show in this movie about the "actors" in this movie... and it went downhill from there... I really wish i would have walked out the first time i thought about it (no less than 5 times did i think about it) but i was sure that there would be SOME redeeming quality... NOPE... IMO HORRIBLE..
I Know Who Killed Me - Lindsay Lohan, Julia Ormond, Neal McDonough.
Aubrey shows up in the hospital with lots of bruises cuts and blood. She'd been missing, and her parents were so happy to have her home, that even when she said she wasn't Aubrey but Dakota, they just figured that she was just confused. Action, Suspense, Gore, but very good.
PS I Love You - Hilary Swank, Gerard Butler, Lisa Kudrow, and Gina Gershon
Soon before her wedding, a young lady's fiance dies and leaves her alone. Suddenly she started receiving letters, notes and packages from her husband, post mortem. All of this she lives for and only this as she gets on with her life, not moving on. A very wonderful movie that i watched soon after my hero deployed, made me bawl for the whole movie. I'd watch it again in a heartbeat.
Baby Mama - Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, Greg Kinnear, Dax Shephard
Unmarried unattached woman decides its time for a baby, going through the normal channels and trying to get pregnant with artificial insemination, decides that hiring a surrogate will solve her problems. She definitely gets more than she bargained for with Angie, an extreme free spirit who agrees to be her "baby mama". Very Funny movie and oh so worth seeing over and over.
The Mummy - Tomb of the Dragon Emperor: Brendon Frasier, Jet Li, Maria Bello, John Hannah
New place, new mummy. Rick O Connell's son is now a treasure hunter as well and is in China. He finds the find of his life, as his uncle and parents come to see it. Of course, the mummy is released and its up to the family to fight it. Definitely done different this time, but still very good and well worth watching.
Hancock - Will Smith, Charlize Theron, Jason Bateman, Eddie Marsan
A not your average Superhero, wants to just be left alone. Some twists and turns, definitely worth watching. Great movie. :D
Mamma Mia - Meryl Streep, Julie Walters, Stellen Skarsgard, Colin Firth, Pierce Brosnan
Based on the Broadway musical of an engaged daughter preparing for her wedding and wanting the father she never knew to walk her down the aisle. She finds her mothers diary and finds that she has 3 possible fathers, so she invites all 3, certain she'll know when she sees him.
It was a good movie, i would say great, but in this day and age, there always has to be a "shock" value to any movie, regardless of musical or not. This annoyed me, so it didn't' get a great rating from me. Aside from that 20 minutes it was great. :D
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull - Harrison Ford, Shai LeBeouf, Cate Blanchett
Typical Indiana Jones movie, its wonderful. Lots of Action, Adventure, and surprises. Definitely worth seeing on the big screen (if its still out where you are) but still worth seeing on any screen. Indiana is working at the college where he's from, his close personal friend and dean says that due to his recent activities that he's been under suspicion and the government is putting pressure on him to fire him. On his way out of town, he meets up with Mutt, who makes him a deal - help him with a personal mission, and he could very well find one of the biggest archaeological finds, the Crystal Skull of Akator.
Yes, I've watched a bit of movies the last few months... just now getting them taken care of though. :D last one for now
Tropic Thunder - Ben Stiller, Jack Black, Robert Downey Jr.
A bunch of actors are taken into a real life war zone, unbeknownst to them.
Supposed to be a comedy, but its just horrible... no other way to put it.. Raunchy, disgusting, insulting (to everyone at one time or another), sacrilegious, idiotic... i went into this movie expecting the best... i got the worst, starting with the trailers that they show in this movie about the "actors" in this movie... and it went downhill from there... I really wish i would have walked out the first time i thought about it (no less than 5 times did i think about it) but i was sure that there would be SOME redeeming quality... NOPE... IMO HORRIBLE..
Friday, August 8, 2008
The Dark Knight
Okay, The Dark Knight. Saw this opening day (yeah, I'm way late posting) Stars Christian Bale and Maggie Gyllenhaal Aaron Eckhart and Heath Ledger. follow up to batman begins, it continues the story line where the first movie stopped.
The movie was good, worth watching, but its lost the "comic book feel" IMO. the characters look less "animated" and more realistic, therefore, might be scarier for younger kids.
Heath Ledger did a good job at being the joker, just didn't' seem as "manic" as the joker played by Jack Nicholson. (My blog, my opinion) This new joker just seemed to have a "heavy" feeling about him. Even the Scarecrow seemed to be a lighter character.
All in all, it was a good movie, good writing and seemed to tell a story that we didn't' get in any of Tim Burton's Batman movies, so it wasn't like it was something you've seen before (to a point)
I know many people won't agree with me but its OK. I enjoyed it very much and encourage anyone to go see it too!
The movie was good, worth watching, but its lost the "comic book feel" IMO. the characters look less "animated" and more realistic, therefore, might be scarier for younger kids.
Heath Ledger did a good job at being the joker, just didn't' seem as "manic" as the joker played by Jack Nicholson. (My blog, my opinion) This new joker just seemed to have a "heavy" feeling about him. Even the Scarecrow seemed to be a lighter character.
All in all, it was a good movie, good writing and seemed to tell a story that we didn't' get in any of Tim Burton's Batman movies, so it wasn't like it was something you've seen before (to a point)
I know many people won't agree with me but its OK. I enjoyed it very much and encourage anyone to go see it too!
Monday, July 14, 2008
Just a Thank You
My hero my love,
Just wanted to post a quick thank you to you, my hero. Our short time together was bittersweet. I cant' wait till you are home for good and not just a quick "rest". I love you and I pray for your safety and the safety of everyone there. I pray that your travel was uneventful and that you get to your destination safely. I love you and already miss you more than i can express. Your visit meant the world to me and the kids and whenever you can be home, whether one hour or one year or forever, we want it. Sending love and kisses from me and the kids to you every second.
Love you always Your adoring wife,
me.
Just wanted to post a quick thank you to you, my hero. Our short time together was bittersweet. I cant' wait till you are home for good and not just a quick "rest". I love you and I pray for your safety and the safety of everyone there. I pray that your travel was uneventful and that you get to your destination safely. I love you and already miss you more than i can express. Your visit meant the world to me and the kids and whenever you can be home, whether one hour or one year or forever, we want it. Sending love and kisses from me and the kids to you every second.
Love you always Your adoring wife,
me.
Suprises
Once again, and absence! sorry about that, i couldn't' post what i wanted to earlier, cause i didn't' know if any family read this blog and i didn't' want to ruin the surprise for my ILs. Hubby came home for R & R and we drove up to surprise them (they were expecting the kids and me) Well, the surprise was wonderful, made them all cry. :-D I was worried that they would figure it out, but no one did so that was great.
Got to spend time with his other daughter too, she's just awesome. The kids love spending time with her. He had fun surprising her as well. Went to some really neat places on our "mini" vacation. One of the best things that we got to do (done by America Supports you, Seats for Soldiers and the Red Sox) was get to see the Red Sox play. It was awesome, the seats provided just were sooo great! I don't' think i could have asked for better tickets.
Seriously!! how great are those! Ticket holders gave up their seats for soldiers and their families to go to the game free. There was even a person that came and took our orders and everything, it was really cool. This was my second game, the first time was in 05, i was pregnant with my daughter and we stood in SRO seating (standing room only).
Pennants
Nice View of the Green Monster
Don't' they do the coolest designs in the grass?
Don't laugh at me or call me a geek but this is something i thought was cool:
They came out with little boards and "flattened" out the sand and made it all pretty again, LOL. Yeah, I'm a silly person, but i didn't notice it last time i went and they don't' show that on TV normally (not that i watch alot of sports on TV) and i thought it was nifty. :D
Close up.
The bull pen percussion section. (love that jolly roger!!)
they beat on the overhang and who knows what else and drum out songs, its really cool. :-)
Needless to say, we had a blast.
Here are hubs and I posing after it was clear that the red sox had kicked butt!
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| From red sox |
if you click on the TEENY TINY red sox link, you can see the rest of the pics from the game.
Truly awesome what they did for us. For my hubby, my hero, my heart.
Thank you, America Supports You and The Boston Red Sox, and the Seats for Soldiers campaign. We appreciate your generosity!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
wow 3 weeks, huh??
Sorry, i didn't realize it'd been over 3 weeks since i posted last. Well, it makes sense. the dreaded sickness hit us JUST as it was getting nice!! stupid bronchitis with Lizzie then on to the upper respiratory infections from Aric and I and then my sinus infection and Lizzie's upper respiratory infection, followed up by another sinus infection from me. YES all in the last 3 weeks.. sick huh? lol.
We are all doing mostly better. apparently, my sinus junk is allergy related, or at least whatever it is, claritin D helps it. lol.
Kids are doing good. Aric learned how to crawl and sit himself up last week and then today he pulled himself up to standing! So smart and soo determined! lol.
Lizzie is just too smart for words! and she's got soo many words! WHEN she listens to you, she shows how big her intelligence is.
Me, i'm ok, down 10 lbs. so i'm very happy about that!
We are all doing mostly better. apparently, my sinus junk is allergy related, or at least whatever it is, claritin D helps it. lol.
Kids are doing good. Aric learned how to crawl and sit himself up last week and then today he pulled himself up to standing! So smart and soo determined! lol.
Lizzie is just too smart for words! and she's got soo many words! WHEN she listens to you, she shows how big her intelligence is.
Me, i'm ok, down 10 lbs. so i'm very happy about that!
Get Smart!
Get Smart - SO totally worth seeing!! Stars Steve Carell and Anne Hathaway.
It was really good, surprisingly since it seems they have to change something that works well.. I don't' know that its too far off from the original sitcom.
I need to get those on DVD... lol and I'd love to see if they'd do a remake of the nude bomb!! although ALOT more would be shown..... not sure how i feel about that. lol
It was really good, surprisingly since it seems they have to change something that works well.. I don't' know that its too far off from the original sitcom.
I need to get those on DVD... lol and I'd love to see if they'd do a remake of the nude bomb!! although ALOT more would be shown..... not sure how i feel about that. lol
Saturday, June 7, 2008
new movie
Just saw Sex in the City. It wasnt' my first choice, wasnt' really in my top 100 of movies to see. But i went with a friend. And i was suprised. It was very good, there was typical sex in the city stuff, lots of gratutious sex scenes, but overall a really good movie. Definately a chick flick. Its one of those that can be seen on the big screen or a tv, its up to you, nothing magical by seeing it on the big screen.
Standing up on your own with help.
Sometimes, we focus on so many little things that we forget the big picture, and everything else. Life becomes so busy and stressful that we focus on that and not on what makes us happy. I am blessed to have a wonderfully sexy and smart and sweet husband that loves me and that i love so very much. Then i got doubly blessed with my two sweet kids. Life sucks sometimes, circumstances suck, but we cant' take our eyes off our blessings or the one who gives them.
I have been focusing on everything but my blessings and the blessing giver. And that screwed me up, my thoughts, my focus, everything was skewed. Sometimes we just need a reminder of our many many blessings. Blessings that would kill me to have taken away cause i was ignoring them or not giving them the attention that they deserve. by not focusing and counting my blessings, i ultimately hurt myself.
I just want to say that I am so very thankful for my blessings, my family, my life. Life is something we take waay too much for granted. Sometimes we look and only see "death and destruction" when we just want to wallow in the mud. Its when we finally look up and realize that the focus is wrong.
Yeah, I'm talking in circles. its my random musings. ;)
I am so thankful for that man that lays down his life and goes off to put it out there, if needed for someone else. For the man that isn't' afraid to stand up and serve. My husband, my soldier, my love. I am so very proud of him, and just am in awe of him. 3 times to leave everything that is "comfortable", home, and his family, not by his choice, but makes it his choice to be a soldier.
I try, sometimes its not my best, sometimes i just suck at being a mom and wife to my kids and hubby. but i cant' just let life toss me about, way too nauseating. :-D I used to stand on my feet (with help) but i took myself out of the helping arms of God to just "do it myself" and wallow in feeling sorry for myself. How selfish of me. So very selfish. I am very ashamed of that. My family comes first, period. Not me. Time to get off my tush and be who i am supposed to be.
Sometimes, little things can make you evaluate your life and change, sometimes you have to go through hell and back before you decide to change. I prefer not to go through that.
Honey, i love you so very much, thank you for your service, thank you for being the man you are. I cant' wait to see you again. I miss you.
I have been focusing on everything but my blessings and the blessing giver. And that screwed me up, my thoughts, my focus, everything was skewed. Sometimes we just need a reminder of our many many blessings. Blessings that would kill me to have taken away cause i was ignoring them or not giving them the attention that they deserve. by not focusing and counting my blessings, i ultimately hurt myself.
I just want to say that I am so very thankful for my blessings, my family, my life. Life is something we take waay too much for granted. Sometimes we look and only see "death and destruction" when we just want to wallow in the mud. Its when we finally look up and realize that the focus is wrong.
Yeah, I'm talking in circles. its my random musings. ;)
I am so thankful for that man that lays down his life and goes off to put it out there, if needed for someone else. For the man that isn't' afraid to stand up and serve. My husband, my soldier, my love. I am so very proud of him, and just am in awe of him. 3 times to leave everything that is "comfortable", home, and his family, not by his choice, but makes it his choice to be a soldier.
I try, sometimes its not my best, sometimes i just suck at being a mom and wife to my kids and hubby. but i cant' just let life toss me about, way too nauseating. :-D I used to stand on my feet (with help) but i took myself out of the helping arms of God to just "do it myself" and wallow in feeling sorry for myself. How selfish of me. So very selfish. I am very ashamed of that. My family comes first, period. Not me. Time to get off my tush and be who i am supposed to be.
Sometimes, little things can make you evaluate your life and change, sometimes you have to go through hell and back before you decide to change. I prefer not to go through that.
Honey, i love you so very much, thank you for your service, thank you for being the man you are. I cant' wait to see you again. I miss you.
Friday, June 6, 2008
A Movie- lol
Kung Fu Panda - Take the kids you wont' be disappointed. I went in with less than desire to see this, but since i didnt' take Lizzie to see Horton Hears a Who (which i enjoyed very much) I decided since she wanted to see "panda mommy panda" that we would. We went to the 1145 showing and that was perfect. she got popcorn and her milk and she moved about halfway through the movie to the seat beside me from the double stroller, and sat enthralled. Yes, i heard the Tiger mommy, Monkey mommy, Snake mommy, Look mommy a panda, etc. but she wasnt' loud and i was soo very impressed with her. Aric fussed a little at the beginning, got his bottle, spit alot of it up and then took a nap.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
More Movies.
National Treasure Book of Secrets. I really enjoyed this movie, its on dvd now. Continues where the old one left off.
The Time Machine. Guy Pearce is the main character. It was good as well, and very enjoyable.
Yeah, sorry, no big reviews, my brain is saying go to sleep.
The Time Machine. Guy Pearce is the main character. It was good as well, and very enjoyable.
Yeah, sorry, no big reviews, my brain is saying go to sleep.
Teeth! and other updates
We finally have teeth! 2 in a day! He won't let me see if there are more, but i have seen 2, i know that several were trying to break through at the same time, so its just a waiting game.
My little guy finally has some teeth! 8 months.. later than i figured he'd get them. But it started, and i hope and pray that the others aren't as much trouble as these first two were.
Aside from the not wanting to eat much at all, both kids seem to be doing good. Bronchitis has left us finally. Hoping that it stays away. 2 year olds and nebulizers don't mix well.
Lizzie is flourishing in her toddler program and always wants to "play with kids" no matter what time of day it is anytime that she gets bored or we pass a playground.
Sun still isn't' out in full force yet, weather is starting to get a little warmer, but with the rain and clouds and COLD its not feeling like almost summer at all. its 1 step warmer 2 steps colder. Eventually, I'm sure.
Still working on my scrap booking swaps, completed another one tonight and hope to finish up at least 2 before Friday.
Still doing my weight loss challenge. Finally found some motivation to exercise, wish i would have been doing it all along. Still snacking too much here and there. Have changed a hair in size, not noticeable, but no real change on the scale. Hoping that the size and weight starts to drop.
Miss my sweet sweet man so very much. I can't wait to see him again. The kids miss him too, and always react positively when its "daddy time" on TV. Aric just stares transfixed as his daddy reads him stories, and gives big smiles.
We are getting a few babbles and such for now, i have heard Dada mo ma and more garbley gook, but its just trying out sounds, not really saying words. YET.
Looking forward to spending time with my girls this summer. I hope it goes wonderfully awesome and smooth.
Also looking forward to seeing family. Its always nice to see family.
up way too late.
My little guy finally has some teeth! 8 months.. later than i figured he'd get them. But it started, and i hope and pray that the others aren't as much trouble as these first two were.
Aside from the not wanting to eat much at all, both kids seem to be doing good. Bronchitis has left us finally. Hoping that it stays away. 2 year olds and nebulizers don't mix well.
Lizzie is flourishing in her toddler program and always wants to "play with kids" no matter what time of day it is anytime that she gets bored or we pass a playground.
Sun still isn't' out in full force yet, weather is starting to get a little warmer, but with the rain and clouds and COLD its not feeling like almost summer at all. its 1 step warmer 2 steps colder. Eventually, I'm sure.
Still working on my scrap booking swaps, completed another one tonight and hope to finish up at least 2 before Friday.
Still doing my weight loss challenge. Finally found some motivation to exercise, wish i would have been doing it all along. Still snacking too much here and there. Have changed a hair in size, not noticeable, but no real change on the scale. Hoping that the size and weight starts to drop.
Miss my sweet sweet man so very much. I can't wait to see him again. The kids miss him too, and always react positively when its "daddy time" on TV. Aric just stares transfixed as his daddy reads him stories, and gives big smiles.
We are getting a few babbles and such for now, i have heard Dada mo ma and more garbley gook, but its just trying out sounds, not really saying words. YET.
Looking forward to spending time with my girls this summer. I hope it goes wonderfully awesome and smooth.
Also looking forward to seeing family. Its always nice to see family.
up way too late.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Change
Change is hard. Change can be good or bad. Change sucks. Change is hard. That's my thoughts on change. In saying that, i have to change. I have to change how i am or i wont' fare well in the future.
I'm overweight. Quite a bit overweight. Have been for some years now. 20lbs ago, it didn't bother me, but you add on those and it weighs heavily on me. (no puns intended) The more i weigh, the less i want to do anything about it. I see the scale go up, and i get discouraged, more depressed.. I see it go down and i get hope.
I eat too much.. I eat when I'm bored, i eat when I'm not. I eat when I'm sad, i eat when I'm happy. I eat when I'm relaxing i eat when I'm busy. Point is, i eat. Doesn't matter what it is, most of the time, its not even cause it tastes good. Its there. Food can be a buddy. Food doesn't judge you, food doesn't tell you you're fat. Its just there, waiting to give you nourishment and comfort. Sometimes not either. 2 weeks ago, i started eating less. No exercise yet, so to speak. Nothing that is consistent, nothing that has stuck.
See, I'm afraid. Afraid of failing. Afraid of change. Mostly just afraid i will fail. And i have and do constantly. I think i sabotage myself. Tell myself that it doesn't' matter, but it does. Between the Hashimotos and my heart, it does matter a whole lot. And still I'm afraid and i let that stop me. Its why i stopped writing blogs lately, its why i don't' exercise. I say I'm just lazy, but its more than that. When i write, its part of me. Something inside of me that i release. I love to write and i miss it so terribly much. So why don't i? Fear. Apparently, i have a lot of fear.
I hate to be alone. And no I'm not "alone" in the physical sense. My kids are here, but its not the same. You can't really talk to a toddler or an infant and get back what you need from your spouse. And you can't really expect your friends to give you that kind of support and love that your husband can. And even though i know I'm loved and i know I'm missed, its still hard. I'm afraid of telling my husband that I'm even doing a weight loss challenge, much less two of them, i don't' want to fail in his eyes. I don't' want to seem weak. (yes, i know my thoughts are all over the place, i flip when i can't go on about a subject for a bit) I don't' want to disappoint the man who left me in charge of everything. He had no choice in the matter, when the army says go, you go. And i know he'll be home "soon" everyone has a different definition of that word.
Back to change. Life throws you curve balls. And i believe that life is allowed to, so we can learn. I should have learned by now, that doing nothing but eating myself silly isn't' working. And in order to change, you have to want to. Have the desire to. So, i am going to make the change. I wont' always do what i hope to, i will fail a few times, but i cant' let it stand in the way of continuing what i need to do. I need to be healthy, and in order to be healthy, i need to loose the weight and get in shape, for my kids, my husband and myself.
I'm overweight. Quite a bit overweight. Have been for some years now. 20lbs ago, it didn't bother me, but you add on those and it weighs heavily on me. (no puns intended) The more i weigh, the less i want to do anything about it. I see the scale go up, and i get discouraged, more depressed.. I see it go down and i get hope.
I eat too much.. I eat when I'm bored, i eat when I'm not. I eat when I'm sad, i eat when I'm happy. I eat when I'm relaxing i eat when I'm busy. Point is, i eat. Doesn't matter what it is, most of the time, its not even cause it tastes good. Its there. Food can be a buddy. Food doesn't judge you, food doesn't tell you you're fat. Its just there, waiting to give you nourishment and comfort. Sometimes not either. 2 weeks ago, i started eating less. No exercise yet, so to speak. Nothing that is consistent, nothing that has stuck.
See, I'm afraid. Afraid of failing. Afraid of change. Mostly just afraid i will fail. And i have and do constantly. I think i sabotage myself. Tell myself that it doesn't' matter, but it does. Between the Hashimotos and my heart, it does matter a whole lot. And still I'm afraid and i let that stop me. Its why i stopped writing blogs lately, its why i don't' exercise. I say I'm just lazy, but its more than that. When i write, its part of me. Something inside of me that i release. I love to write and i miss it so terribly much. So why don't i? Fear. Apparently, i have a lot of fear.
I hate to be alone. And no I'm not "alone" in the physical sense. My kids are here, but its not the same. You can't really talk to a toddler or an infant and get back what you need from your spouse. And you can't really expect your friends to give you that kind of support and love that your husband can. And even though i know I'm loved and i know I'm missed, its still hard. I'm afraid of telling my husband that I'm even doing a weight loss challenge, much less two of them, i don't' want to fail in his eyes. I don't' want to seem weak. (yes, i know my thoughts are all over the place, i flip when i can't go on about a subject for a bit) I don't' want to disappoint the man who left me in charge of everything. He had no choice in the matter, when the army says go, you go. And i know he'll be home "soon" everyone has a different definition of that word.
Back to change. Life throws you curve balls. And i believe that life is allowed to, so we can learn. I should have learned by now, that doing nothing but eating myself silly isn't' working. And in order to change, you have to want to. Have the desire to. So, i am going to make the change. I wont' always do what i hope to, i will fail a few times, but i cant' let it stand in the way of continuing what i need to do. I need to be healthy, and in order to be healthy, i need to loose the weight and get in shape, for my kids, my husband and myself.
Friday, May 23, 2008
And More Movies!
No, i dont' go to the movies all the time. I am just taking the time now, since i haven't in a while. My awesomely wonderful hubby got me the greatest mothers day present (besides him being home). He got me some gift cards to the movies! So, that's why i've gone more in the last few weeks than i have in a long time.
Just saw Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull. It was done in True Indy fashion. Full of Action Adventure and yes, just a little bit of romance tossed in, just a little bit. :) Well worth the time and money to see on the big screen.
Also saw The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. Very very good, was well worth the money and the time to watch it on the big screen. More Fighting, new faces.
Just saw Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull. It was done in True Indy fashion. Full of Action Adventure and yes, just a little bit of romance tossed in, just a little bit. :) Well worth the time and money to see on the big screen.
Also saw The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. Very very good, was well worth the money and the time to watch it on the big screen. More Fighting, new faces.
Hold your Babies (big and small) tight!
I am just sad. I just found out that Steven Curtis Chapman's family just had a horrific accident. Their baby girl was killed in an accident at home. One of her siblings accidentally ran her over in the driveway.
This just breaks my heart for them, and makes me want to go wake up that little toddler of mine (even though she just barely got to sleep) and just hold her tight. No matter how crazy she makes me sometimes, I am so very thankful for her and her brother. They are awesome little kids, different as the day is from the night. They make me smile, they make me laugh, they have also made me cry. But, that is what kids do, and that's what makes them individual little people.
They grow up too fast, way too fast. My little guy is going to be 8 months tomorrow, my little girl is almost 2.5, and my step daughter will be 12 tomorrow. Time is just going WAY too fast.
If you can, please say a prayer for the Chapman Family, they can use all the comfort they can get. Don't' forget to pray for the little people in your life. All kids are someones baby and need to be held sometimes.
This just breaks my heart for them, and makes me want to go wake up that little toddler of mine (even though she just barely got to sleep) and just hold her tight. No matter how crazy she makes me sometimes, I am so very thankful for her and her brother. They are awesome little kids, different as the day is from the night. They make me smile, they make me laugh, they have also made me cry. But, that is what kids do, and that's what makes them individual little people.
They grow up too fast, way too fast. My little guy is going to be 8 months tomorrow, my little girl is almost 2.5, and my step daughter will be 12 tomorrow. Time is just going WAY too fast.
If you can, please say a prayer for the Chapman Family, they can use all the comfort they can get. Don't' forget to pray for the little people in your life. All kids are someones baby and need to be held sometimes.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
More Movies.
I really DO have other things to blog about, just get too busy to do it.
Iron Man - totally awesome movie!! I honestly cant' tell you what made it so cool, it just is. :P Not a cop out, just the truth. Has everything in it you could want. Make sure to stay past all the credits and see the ending. I didn't - :( I hope to find it somewhere i can see it on line, or i just may have to watch it again. Stars Robert Downy Jr and Gwyneth Paltrow.
Disturbia - If you like to be spooked and love suspense, then you will LOVE this movie! It was great!! Shia LeBeouf and David Morse. Even the website is creepy, LOL.
Go to the Movies!! Its a great stress reliever, even if you have kids with you. :D
Iron Man - totally awesome movie!! I honestly cant' tell you what made it so cool, it just is. :P Not a cop out, just the truth. Has everything in it you could want. Make sure to stay past all the credits and see the ending. I didn't - :( I hope to find it somewhere i can see it on line, or i just may have to watch it again. Stars Robert Downy Jr and Gwyneth Paltrow.
Disturbia - If you like to be spooked and love suspense, then you will LOVE this movie! It was great!! Shia LeBeouf and David Morse. Even the website is creepy, LOL.
Go to the Movies!! Its a great stress reliever, even if you have kids with you. :D
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Hashimoto's Thyroiditis
So, i had a test ran a few weeks ago to determine my probability for developing this auto-immune disease. It came back positive.. very positive.
I was really disappointed about it, as i was hoping this would skip me. Why? who knows. I'm no more important than anyone else, no more special. Just really didn't' want to get this. Most of the females on my moms' side of the family have it, including her.
So, what does this mean for me in the future? not much really, just have to keep a closer eye on my thyroid levels and watch for changes in everything, as your thyroid controls a lot of things that go on in your body. When things start to change, make sure that i get on meds as soon as possible.
I need to get my weight down, so i don't' have to worry about the weight and my heart. Not that it wasn't a concern before, but more so now. I know i need to, i just have a hard time wanting to do something about it. Feel like I've hit a new low.
But i have two kids who need their mom and that's gotta be a good motivator. I also plan on getting my hormone levels (all hormones) tested, maybe that's what's really going on with my moods and such.
Bottom line, not a death sentence, but something to be concerned over.
I was really disappointed about it, as i was hoping this would skip me. Why? who knows. I'm no more important than anyone else, no more special. Just really didn't' want to get this. Most of the females on my moms' side of the family have it, including her.
So, what does this mean for me in the future? not much really, just have to keep a closer eye on my thyroid levels and watch for changes in everything, as your thyroid controls a lot of things that go on in your body. When things start to change, make sure that i get on meds as soon as possible.
I need to get my weight down, so i don't' have to worry about the weight and my heart. Not that it wasn't a concern before, but more so now. I know i need to, i just have a hard time wanting to do something about it. Feel like I've hit a new low.
But i have two kids who need their mom and that's gotta be a good motivator. I also plan on getting my hormone levels (all hormones) tested, maybe that's what's really going on with my moods and such.
Bottom line, not a death sentence, but something to be concerned over.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Joys and Struggles with kids.
The joys of kids. They can make you laugh they can make you cry and they can make you wanna pull your hair out. lol. They can break your heart, and they can make your heart fill like it will burst with love and joy. And sometimes all in a day.
I love my little munchkins more than anything. Some days its like, OK, days over, i don't' care that its only 10am, its over, go to bed NOW. Some days its like oh wow, its 9, guess you need to go to bed. but let me give you one more cuddle. most days its in between. That's what happens when you have a toddler who wants to be independent and do what she wants, eat what she wants and wear what she wants. then you have the infant, who wants to DESPERATELY to be mobile and to do things. There comes days when they get so frustrated with everything that they frustrate me in everything and we just all have a good cry.
BUT, they have such sweet hearts and sweet spirits and as long as i don't' loose sight of the fact that they are MY babies, and they want to please me, then it can be a good day. as long as i remember that they are JUST babies and regardless of how fast they are going, they aren't as old as they think they are, then every thing's fine. Some days, all they want is a good love and a big cuddle... the days when you want to the least are the days they need it the most.
Today was a day like that. Lizzie went to bed too late last night, got up too early today and then got wore really out at school, then got a short nap cause i had to wake her up to go to the post office, then drug them though the PX cause she needed diapers, then made her eat when she didn't' want it, even though she just asked for it. (no, i didn't force her to eat, can't make her if she doesn't' want to) But its 9 and i don't' *think* i hear anything going on upstairs.
So, just rambling at this point, think I'll go scrap!
Oh i finished my Use Your Stash challenge. YAY me! Got a million swaps to finish now.
I love my little munchkins more than anything. Some days its like, OK, days over, i don't' care that its only 10am, its over, go to bed NOW. Some days its like oh wow, its 9, guess you need to go to bed. but let me give you one more cuddle. most days its in between. That's what happens when you have a toddler who wants to be independent and do what she wants, eat what she wants and wear what she wants. then you have the infant, who wants to DESPERATELY to be mobile and to do things. There comes days when they get so frustrated with everything that they frustrate me in everything and we just all have a good cry.
BUT, they have such sweet hearts and sweet spirits and as long as i don't' loose sight of the fact that they are MY babies, and they want to please me, then it can be a good day. as long as i remember that they are JUST babies and regardless of how fast they are going, they aren't as old as they think they are, then every thing's fine. Some days, all they want is a good love and a big cuddle... the days when you want to the least are the days they need it the most.
Today was a day like that. Lizzie went to bed too late last night, got up too early today and then got wore really out at school, then got a short nap cause i had to wake her up to go to the post office, then drug them though the PX cause she needed diapers, then made her eat when she didn't' want it, even though she just asked for it. (no, i didn't force her to eat, can't make her if she doesn't' want to) But its 9 and i don't' *think* i hear anything going on upstairs.
So, just rambling at this point, think I'll go scrap!
Oh i finished my Use Your Stash challenge. YAY me! Got a million swaps to finish now.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Scrapping Swapping and Loosing!
I have recently become very much intertwined in my scrapbooking board on BBC. I just love the ladies there and enjoy the motivation i get by being a part of them. I have scrapped more in the last month or two than i have in a long while.
I have also found out that there is more to scrapping than just slapping the pic on the page and writing some info about it. It is so much more than that! You can do all sorts of embellishing on the pages and just create any subject into something that is yours.
Swaps are something else i have gotten into.. i think I've allowed myself to get in over my head.. not a good thing to do. lol. But i will keep my head above water and navigate the waters to victory. right now i "think" I'm in about 9 swaps. 2 are done. One of the swaps is a repeat of one of the ones i have already done and there are titles to be done and tags to be done and recipe cards to be done. I'm actually looking forward to it, it gives me a creative outlet, something i don't use alot.
Loosing is something i hope to be doing soon. I also am participating in a looser challenge with these ladies. Its only 10 weeks, but i hope that it helps me with my motivation and kicks my rear into gear, as i am not as tall as i once was (boo!!) so that means that i need to loose more. Sitting on my tush and doing nothing ISN'T" working!! with the beautiful days we have got going on here, there is no reason i can't be out walking or using my DVDs to work out or take advantage of the free childcare while i work out in the mornings at the gym down the road. There is only one obstacle - ME. I have to get past me, i have to get past the depression, i have to get off my tush which needs to get smaller too. I hate being overweight and hate being at this weight so consistently for the last few months. So, here i go!!
Keep motivated and keep smiling!!
I have also found out that there is more to scrapping than just slapping the pic on the page and writing some info about it. It is so much more than that! You can do all sorts of embellishing on the pages and just create any subject into something that is yours.
Swaps are something else i have gotten into.. i think I've allowed myself to get in over my head.. not a good thing to do. lol. But i will keep my head above water and navigate the waters to victory. right now i "think" I'm in about 9 swaps. 2 are done. One of the swaps is a repeat of one of the ones i have already done and there are titles to be done and tags to be done and recipe cards to be done. I'm actually looking forward to it, it gives me a creative outlet, something i don't use alot.
Loosing is something i hope to be doing soon. I also am participating in a looser challenge with these ladies. Its only 10 weeks, but i hope that it helps me with my motivation and kicks my rear into gear, as i am not as tall as i once was (boo!!) so that means that i need to loose more. Sitting on my tush and doing nothing ISN'T" working!! with the beautiful days we have got going on here, there is no reason i can't be out walking or using my DVDs to work out or take advantage of the free childcare while i work out in the mornings at the gym down the road. There is only one obstacle - ME. I have to get past me, i have to get past the depression, i have to get off my tush which needs to get smaller too. I hate being overweight and hate being at this weight so consistently for the last few months. So, here i go!!
Keep motivated and keep smiling!!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Something to Cry Over....
You know when you go to a new doctor, and they get your height, weight and blood pressure and pulse and all that jazz?
Those are normally nothing to get up in arms about, if you're overweight, chances are you knew that already.
If you have high blood pressure, chances are you already knew, if your pulse is fast, you probably know that as well.
The one thing that you don't' feel prepared for is for them to tell you that you've shrunk...
Normally they just ask, so i tell them what i have been for years... 5ft 4in. well, they actually measured me today.. 62inches.. I said, what? no that can't be right, I'm 64in.. she said, we'll do it again. so we did, and it was true, i SHRUNK by 2 inches!! How do you do that?? I'm only in my 30s, I'm not old... I'm overweight, yes, but how do you shrink 2 inches?? I got more than weepy, i cried. i tried to not let them see (thankfully, they left the room while they waited for the doc to come see me). I am just in shock... I didn't think any clothes got longer, heck, i thought alot of my pants got shorter!! Guess my big ole booty is to blame for that.
Its bad enough to be shorter than alot of kids... my kids will be 5 and tower over me. SHEESH.
Those are normally nothing to get up in arms about, if you're overweight, chances are you knew that already.
If you have high blood pressure, chances are you already knew, if your pulse is fast, you probably know that as well.
The one thing that you don't' feel prepared for is for them to tell you that you've shrunk...
Normally they just ask, so i tell them what i have been for years... 5ft 4in. well, they actually measured me today.. 62inches.. I said, what? no that can't be right, I'm 64in.. she said, we'll do it again. so we did, and it was true, i SHRUNK by 2 inches!! How do you do that?? I'm only in my 30s, I'm not old... I'm overweight, yes, but how do you shrink 2 inches?? I got more than weepy, i cried. i tried to not let them see (thankfully, they left the room while they waited for the doc to come see me). I am just in shock... I didn't think any clothes got longer, heck, i thought alot of my pants got shorter!! Guess my big ole booty is to blame for that.
Its bad enough to be shorter than alot of kids... my kids will be 5 and tower over me. SHEESH.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Movies
I recently saw Sydney White - it was pretty cute and worth the rental. Modern Version of Snow White starring Amanda Bynes (forgive the bad misspelling) as Sydney White. She's going to college and is intent on joining the fraternity that her mom was in (her mom passed when she was young)
Dan in real life, was OK, stars Steve Correl (from the office) Not alot of hilarity, IMO. Single father of 3 girls trying to deal with that and maybe getting a life of his own.
Stardust - Stars Robert Deniro and Michelle Pheiffer - cute movie about a poor boy who likes the rich girl who is also being courted by a rich man. He tells her he will do anything in the world for her, including getting the star that has fallen to earth. Action, Adventure, Romance, all wrapped up into one.
Awake - Movie starring Hayden Christensen (from star wars episodes 1 2 and 3) and Jessica Alba - deals with what happens when the anesthesia doesn't' work correct when a man is getting a heart transplant and finds out about his new wife, best friend doc and such, very suspenseful and good!
Leatherheads - Stars George Clooney and Renee Zelweiger - movie about the start of pro football. Good movie, just not a comedy.
Dan in real life, was OK, stars Steve Correl (from the office) Not alot of hilarity, IMO. Single father of 3 girls trying to deal with that and maybe getting a life of his own.
Stardust - Stars Robert Deniro and Michelle Pheiffer - cute movie about a poor boy who likes the rich girl who is also being courted by a rich man. He tells her he will do anything in the world for her, including getting the star that has fallen to earth. Action, Adventure, Romance, all wrapped up into one.
Awake - Movie starring Hayden Christensen (from star wars episodes 1 2 and 3) and Jessica Alba - deals with what happens when the anesthesia doesn't' work correct when a man is getting a heart transplant and finds out about his new wife, best friend doc and such, very suspenseful and good!
Leatherheads - Stars George Clooney and Renee Zelweiger - movie about the start of pro football. Good movie, just not a comedy.
I Think That I'm Going to Loose it Tuesday!!
Little Ms. Elizabeth starts toddler program on Tuesday... She's getting to be so big.. I KNOW this will be good for her, i just am trying to not chicken out. She needs this as do i, and the kids have already gotten used to getting up early, so its not like i have to work hard to get her ready to leave before 9am.
Its only 3 hours a day 2 days a week, but its a big step, it will be very structured and not an "optional" thing.. I have to pay whether she goes or not, so to not waste money, she has to go. I hope she's not sick still by then.
I hope this better structure will be some good consistency for her. (and me, lol)
They seem to do alot there (and look like they even introduce them to scissors!!!) And looks like it will be a good time. I am scared and excited for her. She's such a doll, and i hope this will help her blossom even more.
Its only 3 hours a day 2 days a week, but its a big step, it will be very structured and not an "optional" thing.. I have to pay whether she goes or not, so to not waste money, she has to go. I hope she's not sick still by then.
I hope this better structure will be some good consistency for her. (and me, lol)
They seem to do alot there (and look like they even introduce them to scissors!!!) And looks like it will be a good time. I am scared and excited for her. She's such a doll, and i hope this will help her blossom even more.
Just Ramblings
Okay, so I've not been very good lately as far as posting... grr. i had something that i wanted to blog about the other night, but now, no clue what it was!
Kids and I have been sick lately. Aric started then he passed it to me. Monday i had pink eye, now i have something else going on and for some reason the clinics' not being proactive with it.... grrr.
My new little nephew needs prayers for he's in the hospital with dehydration and such. Please remember him, as he's so young and a first child for my brother and SIL.
The weather here was finally turning nice... then it turned again. the highs are only 45 or so today and supposed to get snow showers tonight. boooooo. Can't wait to live in the south again!!
My little guy is so funny, such a character and has a great personality. He can roll over now, still takes some effort, as he is about 22 lbs now. he can sit up, with help. loves to laugh and be the center of attention.
My little girl is just a doll. she loves attention too, and likes to be independent..
Can someone please tell the sun that it needs to come over here and keep the north warm???
Kids and I have been sick lately. Aric started then he passed it to me. Monday i had pink eye, now i have something else going on and for some reason the clinics' not being proactive with it.... grrr.
My new little nephew needs prayers for he's in the hospital with dehydration and such. Please remember him, as he's so young and a first child for my brother and SIL.
The weather here was finally turning nice... then it turned again. the highs are only 45 or so today and supposed to get snow showers tonight. boooooo. Can't wait to live in the south again!!
My little guy is so funny, such a character and has a great personality. He can roll over now, still takes some effort, as he is about 22 lbs now. he can sit up, with help. loves to laugh and be the center of attention.
My little girl is just a doll. she loves attention too, and likes to be independent..
Can someone please tell the sun that it needs to come over here and keep the north warm???
Saturday, April 5, 2008
New Babies
I just love new babies!! My sister had one a few months after i had my son and now my Sis in law has her new son. I'm happy for them, its awesome!!
Nothing like the smell and feel of a newborn. very intoxicating. NOPE, doesn't make me want more. I'm content and very blessed.
I hope that my readers are doing OK. Haven't been up to writing lately, I'll try to fix that and write more.
Have a wonderful 1st April Weekend!! Hoping for no snow for you and plenty of warm dry weather.
Nothing like the smell and feel of a newborn. very intoxicating. NOPE, doesn't make me want more. I'm content and very blessed.
I hope that my readers are doing OK. Haven't been up to writing lately, I'll try to fix that and write more.
Have a wonderful 1st April Weekend!! Hoping for no snow for you and plenty of warm dry weather.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Just Some Jokes
Everyone needs to laugh now and then. :-D
1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?
Unique Up On It.
2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?
Tame Way, Unique Up On It.
3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest ?
They Take The Psycho Path
4. How Do You Get Holy Water?
You Boil The Hell Out Of It.
5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall?
Dam!
6. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long?
Polaroids
7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work?
A Stick
8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?
Nacho Cheese.
9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers?
Subordinate Clauses.
10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand?
Quattro Sinko..
11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow?
Spoiled Milk.
12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman with A Vampire?
Frostbite
13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches?
A Nervous Wreck.
14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup?
Anyone Can Roast Beef.
15. Why Do Gorillas Have Big Nostrils?
Because They Have Big Fingers.
16. What Kind Of Coffee Was Served On The Titanic?
Sanka.
17. What Is The Difference Between a Harley And a Hoover ?
The Location Of The Dirt Bag.
18. Why Did Pilgrims' Pants Always Fall Down?
Because They Wore Their Belt Buckle On Their Hat.
19. What's The Difference Between a Bad Golfer And a Bad Skydiver?
A Bad Golfer Goes, Whack, Dang!
A Bad Skydiver Goes Dang! Whack.
20. How Are a Texas Tornado And a Tennessee Divorce The Same?
Somebody's Gonna Lose A Trailer
Yes, some are just groaners, but some are pretty cute!! Thanks Julia for posting them!
1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?
Unique Up On It.
2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?
Tame Way, Unique Up On It.
3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest ?
They Take The Psycho Path
4. How Do You Get Holy Water?
You Boil The Hell Out Of It.
5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall?
Dam!
6. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long?
Polaroids
7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work?
A Stick
8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?
Nacho Cheese.
9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers?
Subordinate Clauses.
10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand?
Quattro Sinko..
11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow?
Spoiled Milk.
12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman with A Vampire?
Frostbite
13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches?
A Nervous Wreck.
14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup?
Anyone Can Roast Beef.
15. Why Do Gorillas Have Big Nostrils?
Because They Have Big Fingers.
16. What Kind Of Coffee Was Served On The Titanic?
Sanka.
17. What Is The Difference Between a Harley And a Hoover ?
The Location Of The Dirt Bag.
18. Why Did Pilgrims' Pants Always Fall Down?
Because They Wore Their Belt Buckle On Their Hat.
19. What's The Difference Between a Bad Golfer And a Bad Skydiver?
A Bad Golfer Goes, Whack, Dang!
A Bad Skydiver Goes Dang! Whack.
20. How Are a Texas Tornado And a Tennessee Divorce The Same?
Somebody's Gonna Lose A Trailer
Yes, some are just groaners, but some are pretty cute!! Thanks Julia for posting them!
Monday, March 17, 2008
Are You Sane??
I've had a song in my head lately, its from Dr. Demento
Remember when you ran away
And I got on my knees and begged
You not to leave
Because I'd go berserk?
Well!
You left me anyhow and then
The days got worse and worse
And now you see I've gone
Completely out of my mind.
And
They're coming to take me away, Ha-ha
They're coming to take me away, Ho-ho
Hee-hee-haa-haa
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see those
Nice young men in their clean white coats and
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha!
You thought it was a joke
and so you laughed, you laughed,
when I had said that losing you
would make me flip my lid.
Right?
You know you laughed
I heard you laugh
You laughed, you laughed
and laughed and then you left but
Now you know I'm utterly mad
And
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha,
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho,
hee hee, haa haa
To the happy home
With trees and flowers and chirping birds
And basket-weavers who sit and smile
And twiddle their thumbs and toes
And they're coming to take me away, ha-hahaha...
I cooked your food, I cleaned your house,
And this is how you pay me back for
All my kind, unselfish, loving deeds,
Hah?
Well you just wait, they'll find you yet
And when they do they'll put you in the ASPCA you mangey mutt!
And
They're coming to take me away, Ha-ha
They're coming to take me away, Ho-ho
Hee-hee-haa-haa
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see those
Nice young men in their clean white coats and
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha!
To the happy home
With trees and flowers and chirping birds
And basket-weavers who sit and smile
And twiddle their thumbs and toes
And they're coming to take me away, ha-hahaha...
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see.....
If you've never heard it, you gotta find it on line and listen to it! It will be stuck in your head for years... i haven't heard it anywhere but my head since 1997......
found this link on youtube... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8v_EjCKpVU&feature=related
Remember when you ran away
And I got on my knees and begged
You not to leave
Because I'd go berserk?
Well!
You left me anyhow and then
The days got worse and worse
And now you see I've gone
Completely out of my mind.
And
They're coming to take me away, Ha-ha
They're coming to take me away, Ho-ho
Hee-hee-haa-haa
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see those
Nice young men in their clean white coats and
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha!
You thought it was a joke
and so you laughed, you laughed,
when I had said that losing you
would make me flip my lid.
Right?
You know you laughed
I heard you laugh
You laughed, you laughed
and laughed and then you left but
Now you know I'm utterly mad
And
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha,
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho,
hee hee, haa haa
To the happy home
With trees and flowers and chirping birds
And basket-weavers who sit and smile
And twiddle their thumbs and toes
And they're coming to take me away, ha-hahaha...
I cooked your food, I cleaned your house,
And this is how you pay me back for
All my kind, unselfish, loving deeds,
Hah?
Well you just wait, they'll find you yet
And when they do they'll put you in the ASPCA you mangey mutt!
And
They're coming to take me away, Ha-ha
They're coming to take me away, Ho-ho
Hee-hee-haa-haa
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see those
Nice young men in their clean white coats and
They're coming to take me away, ha-ha!
To the happy home
With trees and flowers and chirping birds
And basket-weavers who sit and smile
And twiddle their thumbs and toes
And they're coming to take me away, ha-hahaha...
To the funny farm
Where life is beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see.....
If you've never heard it, you gotta find it on line and listen to it! It will be stuck in your head for years... i haven't heard it anywhere but my head since 1997......
found this link on youtube... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8v_EjCKpVU&feature=related
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Giving Thanks for Hubby
Ok, so I've barely mentioned my hubby. That doesn't do him justice! at all! I keep saying, ok, i need to blog this so it shows exactly how awesome he is. and i forget... Not hard to do being that I feel like I've got a million balls in the air. I normally have a ton of things going on at once, and still forget, but when he's here, he helps me out, gives me my sanity and just is comforting. But when he's gone, its a whole new ball game. Things i don't' have to normally think about, i have to remember. For instance, i don't do the trash, kitty litter, feed the kitties, and put the kids to bed and stuff like that. Now i have to do it all and remember to do it.
This year, i had a harder time starting out, i think that I let myself just get too wrapped up in everything and just forgot that i can do it, and kept telling myself that i couldn't. I don't' WANT to, but i CAN. A supportive, loving hubby insures that the transition will be fine.. when you listen and just relax. But of course, i didn't.. and found myself almost spiraling out of control. Something that I ended up doing was made myself think the worst, and not realize that it was ok, that i can do it. So, with the stress and everything that was going on, you know, 2 kids now, one infant, one toddler, well in to the terrible twos, 2 cats, a 2 story house to take care of, finish organizing everything, just seemed to pile on top of me.
And i let it sit there for a while.. getting heavier and heavier to where i thought i couldn't' breath.. Then i finally asked for help.. of course, it came in the form of a pill. Then a different one, then a new dosage... all in a VERY short time frame. (all prescription for depression, nothing else) They never had a chance to get into my system and start to work. But, i think that just asking for the help, made me realize that it is ok, whether mommy needs to take a few extra minutes in the shower for alone time, or needs to cuddle one of the kids extra long, it is OK. I will be ok.
And he never doubted that i could do it. Even when i started to allow myself to freak out cause i lean on him so much, that he still KNEW i could do it. and, 2 weeks later, i know i can too.
He is awesome, and i have so much love and respect for him, that i could never express it well enough to make my point. We've been together over 8 years now, and regardless of how much junk we deal with or go through, we're here, together, and i thank God for that.
I think that God allows him to go (this is his THIRD time) so that i will remember to give God thanks and bless Him (God) for giving me my sweet Kevin. Cause, sometimes, i forget to be thankful.. and that is just so NOT good. Sometimes, i KNOW i smother Kevin with too much "neediness" cause i forget that God is there to lean on too. He (God) gave me life and my family, and I've been doubly blessed far and above than i deserve. Sometimes, i need that "kick in the pants" to remember that.
This year, i had a harder time starting out, i think that I let myself just get too wrapped up in everything and just forgot that i can do it, and kept telling myself that i couldn't. I don't' WANT to, but i CAN. A supportive, loving hubby insures that the transition will be fine.. when you listen and just relax. But of course, i didn't.. and found myself almost spiraling out of control. Something that I ended up doing was made myself think the worst, and not realize that it was ok, that i can do it. So, with the stress and everything that was going on, you know, 2 kids now, one infant, one toddler, well in to the terrible twos, 2 cats, a 2 story house to take care of, finish organizing everything, just seemed to pile on top of me.
And i let it sit there for a while.. getting heavier and heavier to where i thought i couldn't' breath.. Then i finally asked for help.. of course, it came in the form of a pill. Then a different one, then a new dosage... all in a VERY short time frame. (all prescription for depression, nothing else) They never had a chance to get into my system and start to work. But, i think that just asking for the help, made me realize that it is ok, whether mommy needs to take a few extra minutes in the shower for alone time, or needs to cuddle one of the kids extra long, it is OK. I will be ok.
And he never doubted that i could do it. Even when i started to allow myself to freak out cause i lean on him so much, that he still KNEW i could do it. and, 2 weeks later, i know i can too.
He is awesome, and i have so much love and respect for him, that i could never express it well enough to make my point. We've been together over 8 years now, and regardless of how much junk we deal with or go through, we're here, together, and i thank God for that.
I think that God allows him to go (this is his THIRD time) so that i will remember to give God thanks and bless Him (God) for giving me my sweet Kevin. Cause, sometimes, i forget to be thankful.. and that is just so NOT good. Sometimes, i KNOW i smother Kevin with too much "neediness" cause i forget that God is there to lean on too. He (God) gave me life and my family, and I've been doubly blessed far and above than i deserve. Sometimes, i need that "kick in the pants" to remember that.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
The Longest Day Ever
I really do wish i knew why when you are feeling your worst that the kids act up or need you the most... I woke up at 230 am with the fun little "present" my kids had, meaning the stomach flu or bug or something. Anyway, i started yakking and didn't' really stop for hours and hours.. It bit! I would be like, ok, its gotta be 10 now, and it was still 630. Time just dragged big time.
When i put Lizzie down for her nap, i was shocked to see it was *only* 130 and not the 430 it felt like. I don't' think I've ever had time drag on like i did today.
oh well, I've had a sleeve of saltines and some ginger ale today. I just had two pieces of bread with some butter on them, so hopefully they will stay down and not want out. *sigh* This new drug makes me really sleepy.. I am wondering if i am used to it or i puked it out this morning... as i was dragging today, but I'm sure it had to do more with lack of nutrition, being up really early and all the puking, and not my pill... who knows...
Don't' forget to spring forward at 2am! Hopefully, i WON"T be awake to do it!
When i put Lizzie down for her nap, i was shocked to see it was *only* 130 and not the 430 it felt like. I don't' think I've ever had time drag on like i did today.
oh well, I've had a sleeve of saltines and some ginger ale today. I just had two pieces of bread with some butter on them, so hopefully they will stay down and not want out. *sigh* This new drug makes me really sleepy.. I am wondering if i am used to it or i puked it out this morning... as i was dragging today, but I'm sure it had to do more with lack of nutrition, being up really early and all the puking, and not my pill... who knows...
Don't' forget to spring forward at 2am! Hopefully, i WON"T be awake to do it!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Getting help when you need it
I am not a person that likes to ask for help when it comes to me. I will ask for help for someone else, but not me. I hate to show vulnerability. But, when you need help, you need help and if you don't' reach out that is not a good thing.
So, I realized about a week before hubby deployed that i needed help. And i ignored it, and ignored it, till the day before he left. Then i reached out and asked. and of course, i couldn't 'get help right away. Not till a few days later and past a weekend. Well, the first course of antidepressants i got was not for me. 2 days later and i was like no way, cant' do it, the side effects are bad.. So, i got put on something else. I'm on my 1st day still, about to take dose number 2 in an hour or so. It makes me SLEEPY. I hope that is just temporary, cause the kids don't sleep past 7 or 8 if they can help it.
And of course, they BOTH got sick. I think Lizzie's over it. Hopefully Aric will be over it soon. blah. Sickies suck!
Aric rolled over ONCE, just ONCE, but he did it, now if he can just remember what he did to do it, he he.
Sorry i haven't written lately, i will do better to keep this up.
So, I realized about a week before hubby deployed that i needed help. And i ignored it, and ignored it, till the day before he left. Then i reached out and asked. and of course, i couldn't 'get help right away. Not till a few days later and past a weekend. Well, the first course of antidepressants i got was not for me. 2 days later and i was like no way, cant' do it, the side effects are bad.. So, i got put on something else. I'm on my 1st day still, about to take dose number 2 in an hour or so. It makes me SLEEPY. I hope that is just temporary, cause the kids don't sleep past 7 or 8 if they can help it.
And of course, they BOTH got sick. I think Lizzie's over it. Hopefully Aric will be over it soon. blah. Sickies suck!
Aric rolled over ONCE, just ONCE, but he did it, now if he can just remember what he did to do it, he he.
Sorry i haven't written lately, i will do better to keep this up.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Vacation.
On vacation and the weather is still cold and now, as of today snowy, blah. In MA and just taking it easy for a week and a half vacation. Less than a week till my hero, my love, has to leave and do the hero thing. I am proud of him, even though it really isn't my idea of a way to spend a year. (alone. :-( )
The kids are showing that they're in a different place and acting up some, their sleep was messed up for the first week as well, which means it will probably be icky for a week or so when we get home. I hope that Lizzie adjusts well. She just loves her daddy and if she had the choice, its daddy, always has been.
Aric is doing better, he's not had a treatment in a few days, and seems to be his happy self. His appetite is completely back. He's still a little cranky as everything is different here for him, he is used to being able to expend a ton of energy in his jumparoo, but there is nothing here for him to do that in, except if he uses my tummy or thighs for him to jump on.. unfortunately for me, they are, in Aric's opinion, wonderful for jumping on, lol. Guess I'm just too squishy, lol.
We were supposed to go to a crop tonight, but it snowed all day. My SIL was supposed to call me after 3 and let me know if it was for sure cancelled, but i heard nothing, so i had to assume it was. I like to scrap, i especially like to scrap with other people, its great for motivation. Oh well.
Lizzie's' become a little stripper AGAIN, what her fascination with taking off her sleeper and diaper i Just don't know... oh well. Maybe its just another short phase.
We leave on Monday to come home. Its always nice to go home, no matter where you are or how long you've been gone. I hope the cats are fine, i haven't been able to get in touch with my friend, yet..
More later my readers!
The kids are showing that they're in a different place and acting up some, their sleep was messed up for the first week as well, which means it will probably be icky for a week or so when we get home. I hope that Lizzie adjusts well. She just loves her daddy and if she had the choice, its daddy, always has been.
Aric is doing better, he's not had a treatment in a few days, and seems to be his happy self. His appetite is completely back. He's still a little cranky as everything is different here for him, he is used to being able to expend a ton of energy in his jumparoo, but there is nothing here for him to do that in, except if he uses my tummy or thighs for him to jump on.. unfortunately for me, they are, in Aric's opinion, wonderful for jumping on, lol. Guess I'm just too squishy, lol.
We were supposed to go to a crop tonight, but it snowed all day. My SIL was supposed to call me after 3 and let me know if it was for sure cancelled, but i heard nothing, so i had to assume it was. I like to scrap, i especially like to scrap with other people, its great for motivation. Oh well.
Lizzie's' become a little stripper AGAIN, what her fascination with taking off her sleeper and diaper i Just don't know... oh well. Maybe its just another short phase.
We leave on Monday to come home. Its always nice to go home, no matter where you are or how long you've been gone. I hope the cats are fine, i haven't been able to get in touch with my friend, yet..
More later my readers!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
V-Day and sickies and leaving
Valentines day is tomorrow. I always get so excited at any holiday where it is possible that i might get a gift from my hubby. I love to get presents and always get excited when a package comes in the mail (even though its usually something i bought). Christmas is a time when my expectation goes through the roof as well. :-D Yep, like a big kid. Christmas, our anniversary and then valentines day, 3 months in a row.
I love to buy gifts as well, sometimes i do better than others, but i try. Kids are fun to shop for, they're pretty easy, as is my hubby, he likes a few things and every now and then something different.
My hubby does very good when it comes to getting me a present. I used to get them just because, but now its cut down alot cause i tend to just get what i want when i want. lol, and i complain that I dont' get any "extras" any more.. gee i wonder why, lol. Oh well. It just shows that you're being thought of. Its nice!
My sweet hubby is leaving again. I know its a necessary evil, but it sucks all the same. I hope that I have hte strength that hubby beleives i do to take care of the kids. I think that everyone is getting better, thank God, i was loosing it. I hate the sickies, they've visited one too many times! I plan on being more active and participating in outside activities more, so i think that will help alot.
I love you sweetie!!
Ok, gotta cut this short, gotta give the little guy his treatment and put him to bed. Be so glad when he's not sick anymore!
(spell checker is STILL not working!!)
I love to buy gifts as well, sometimes i do better than others, but i try. Kids are fun to shop for, they're pretty easy, as is my hubby, he likes a few things and every now and then something different.
My hubby does very good when it comes to getting me a present. I used to get them just because, but now its cut down alot cause i tend to just get what i want when i want. lol, and i complain that I dont' get any "extras" any more.. gee i wonder why, lol. Oh well. It just shows that you're being thought of. Its nice!
My sweet hubby is leaving again. I know its a necessary evil, but it sucks all the same. I hope that I have hte strength that hubby beleives i do to take care of the kids. I think that everyone is getting better, thank God, i was loosing it. I hate the sickies, they've visited one too many times! I plan on being more active and participating in outside activities more, so i think that will help alot.
I love you sweetie!!
Ok, gotta cut this short, gotta give the little guy his treatment and put him to bed. Be so glad when he's not sick anymore!
(spell checker is STILL not working!!)
Friday, February 8, 2008
My Sick Little Guy
RSV has hit the house. fun fun. I kept taking him to the docs and was getting teed off at getting told that he "just had a cold" again. Tonight he sounded bad. Like he was drowning bad. the cough sounded extra wet, he spit up his last bottle, etc.. then came the wheezing. this was about 8, and i wasn't sure what to do. So i called the Accute care clinic, who tells me we have no more available appts for the night (its 830, they close at 9) They say (cause i'm like about to cry on the phone with them) that i can call 911 and the ambulance will come and the Emts will evaluate him. I'm like, uh, i dont' want to have that big co-pay just for them to tell me its in my head.. she said these are ft. drum ambulance/emts, so there is no copay and it will be ok, no one will think bad of you for calling. So, i wait a few more times, embarrassed to call 911, certain they were going to tell me that it was nothing.
But i just had to, so i did, they showed up within 5-10 minutes. First the fire department showed up, then the police, then the ambulance. maybe 8-10 people?? THey make sure that he's not dying then all leave but the EMTs. The lady says that she can hear him wheezing, but he seems so happy, that i can probably wait till morning to take him in, or i can have them take us, or we can drive him to teh ER. So i start crying again and finally say, lets go. Of course, all this time he's smiling and just having a grand ole time with the lady giving all her attention to him. (which i think is part of the reason that she was like he's probably ok, my kids never act sick unless they are SICK SICK)
He gets a nebulizer treatment in the ambulance and falls asleep. We get to the ER and they take him back while i fill out forms. i finally get back there and they are just about to finish up his O2 stats (they were 95 yesterday and at the house) and they were 97 in the hospital. They get a rectal temp and its 99. Then the nurse says you gotta get those boogies sucked out... (here's where i roll my eyes) I told her i try, i use the saline and dont' use the saline, either way it pisses him off and next to nothing comes out most of the time. She tells me she needs to suck out his boogies and you're going to think he's drowning; he'll cough, he'll gag; he'll do everythign that will make you think its bad, but he'll be fine. So, i sit by as she nearly drowns him (I start crying again) with hte saline and starts sucking... she gets not even one decent amount of booger. shes like its up there, just must be up in his sinus'. I'm like yep, and i dont' feel like sucking my baby's brain out. So they take it and say they'll test it for rsv and the flu.
I wait FOREVER for them to come back... in the meantime. the doc comes in and i have to say all over again what's wrong and he has to listen to him again. Then i say he was just in teh docs yesterday and they keep saying its a cold. The ladies earlier were testing for the flu and rsv and i haven't heard anything. He says i'll do the test for rsv, but without a fever its not the flu. I said NO, the ladies just a while ago tested and haven't told me anything, he says oh, i thought you meant yesterday. (can we give him a pop and say should have had a v8??) Why don't they talk to each other?? So he also orders a chest x-ray, cause he can hear the rattling. (yay, a doc believes me!!)
In the meantime, hubby and lizzie are still in the waiting room (they came by truck) and i finally flag someone down and get them to let them come in. A few minutes later, he gets another nebulizer treatment. After a while, they let me and Aric go back for his X-ray... If you have never experienced one of these things... consider yourself blessed!! my poor little chubby (19lbs 1 oz) guy!! They have him sit up on a teeny tiny bicycle seat (i swear that's what it looked like!!) then put his arms above his head and hold them there, while putting plastic peices on each side of him to hold him still, then put a strap around it to "keep him still" My poor little man was sooooooo peeved! He screamed bloody murder, and they were just in shock, he was moving stuff around that he shouldnt 'have been able to. They're like wow he's strong. I'm liek um yeah... what did you expect?? So they take the two or three chest x-rays and he's allowed out of the contraption.
we go back to the room where i get him calmed down and he falls asleep, absolutely worn out. Doc finally comes in and says he has RSV. I am like thank you, i knew it was more than just a cold. And am i thankful my little guys not a very little guy!! So, arrangements were made to pick up the prescription for the nebulizer this morning and the equipment was supposed to be here about 930, they called me at 7 and said they'd be here at 8. Aric sleept in his infant seat last night in his crib. Its was a LONG day.
He got his first treatment this morning. Ate some more and then, promptly spewed his bottle he had before the treatment... i dunno if he had too much or if its cause of hte treatment. He's sleeping now and has 1-2 hours before a new treatment is available.
BOO HISS to docs that are too busy to run a simple test!
But i just had to, so i did, they showed up within 5-10 minutes. First the fire department showed up, then the police, then the ambulance. maybe 8-10 people?? THey make sure that he's not dying then all leave but the EMTs. The lady says that she can hear him wheezing, but he seems so happy, that i can probably wait till morning to take him in, or i can have them take us, or we can drive him to teh ER. So i start crying again and finally say, lets go. Of course, all this time he's smiling and just having a grand ole time with the lady giving all her attention to him. (which i think is part of the reason that she was like he's probably ok, my kids never act sick unless they are SICK SICK)
He gets a nebulizer treatment in the ambulance and falls asleep. We get to the ER and they take him back while i fill out forms. i finally get back there and they are just about to finish up his O2 stats (they were 95 yesterday and at the house) and they were 97 in the hospital. They get a rectal temp and its 99. Then the nurse says you gotta get those boogies sucked out... (here's where i roll my eyes) I told her i try, i use the saline and dont' use the saline, either way it pisses him off and next to nothing comes out most of the time. She tells me she needs to suck out his boogies and you're going to think he's drowning; he'll cough, he'll gag; he'll do everythign that will make you think its bad, but he'll be fine. So, i sit by as she nearly drowns him (I start crying again) with hte saline and starts sucking... she gets not even one decent amount of booger. shes like its up there, just must be up in his sinus'. I'm like yep, and i dont' feel like sucking my baby's brain out. So they take it and say they'll test it for rsv and the flu.
I wait FOREVER for them to come back... in the meantime. the doc comes in and i have to say all over again what's wrong and he has to listen to him again. Then i say he was just in teh docs yesterday and they keep saying its a cold. The ladies earlier were testing for the flu and rsv and i haven't heard anything. He says i'll do the test for rsv, but without a fever its not the flu. I said NO, the ladies just a while ago tested and haven't told me anything, he says oh, i thought you meant yesterday. (can we give him a pop and say should have had a v8??) Why don't they talk to each other?? So he also orders a chest x-ray, cause he can hear the rattling. (yay, a doc believes me!!)
In the meantime, hubby and lizzie are still in the waiting room (they came by truck) and i finally flag someone down and get them to let them come in. A few minutes later, he gets another nebulizer treatment. After a while, they let me and Aric go back for his X-ray... If you have never experienced one of these things... consider yourself blessed!! my poor little chubby (19lbs 1 oz) guy!! They have him sit up on a teeny tiny bicycle seat (i swear that's what it looked like!!) then put his arms above his head and hold them there, while putting plastic peices on each side of him to hold him still, then put a strap around it to "keep him still" My poor little man was sooooooo peeved! He screamed bloody murder, and they were just in shock, he was moving stuff around that he shouldnt 'have been able to. They're like wow he's strong. I'm liek um yeah... what did you expect?? So they take the two or three chest x-rays and he's allowed out of the contraption.
we go back to the room where i get him calmed down and he falls asleep, absolutely worn out. Doc finally comes in and says he has RSV. I am like thank you, i knew it was more than just a cold. And am i thankful my little guys not a very little guy!! So, arrangements were made to pick up the prescription for the nebulizer this morning and the equipment was supposed to be here about 930, they called me at 7 and said they'd be here at 8. Aric sleept in his infant seat last night in his crib. Its was a LONG day.
He got his first treatment this morning. Ate some more and then, promptly spewed his bottle he had before the treatment... i dunno if he had too much or if its cause of hte treatment. He's sleeping now and has 1-2 hours before a new treatment is available.
BOO HISS to docs that are too busy to run a simple test!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Dry Brain Today
You ever have those days when you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind?? That day is here. Okay, so I did the bad thing, the big no no when it comes to writing. NOTHING. I've left this open for several hours! Half forgotten and half not sure what to say.
One time, for a blind date I went on a camping trip with this guy and his family. He was younger, like 4 or 5 years younger than me. I was at a particularly low point in my life and pretty vulnerable. But, I thought he was cute, I liked him, but was too shy to ask him out, so my boss did. So, it wasn't like a "blind date" in the traditional sense, but I had no clue who he was besides the works coke deliveryman.
I went to his house to meet him there and follow, and I brought my big dog Sampson with me. (Hey, I might have been semi desperate for human contact, but I wasn't stupid!!) I met the family and they were sweet, they just adored their son. We were going out early to scope the site and to set up and they'd be there a few hours behind. So, I don’t know if we took his truck or mine, but me him and Sampson packed in one of the vehicles and we talked for the hour or so that it took us to get there. This guy was sweet and smart and had a plan for his life. A good one. The problem was, he was including my dog(s) and me in that plan... and we had really just met. Kind of spooked me. ALOT. I mean, who makes plans for life so soon??
To be fair, if I had been at ANY point in my life besides where I was, I would have probably taken him up on the offer no problem, no looking back. Wasn't sure how I would have dealt with the truckers life, but I would have figured it out. Did I consider?? Heck yeah! He was smart and cute and sweet, but I wasn’t' ready for marriage again and wanted to really know all secrets before jumping into that boat. Again.
The weekend was great; I had picked out a great sleeping bag that went to -15, so no need for any other body heat than my own. And he picked a hill to pitch the tent on, put me on top of the hill, in case "I tossed or turned and fell down the hill, then I’d be close to him" lol. So funny, so sweet, nope he didn’t' try anything all weekend. Yep, we kissed, but that was all. He did help me face my fear of heights though.. I stood on top of this HIGH boulder and jumped into his arms. Waaaay down into the water below. Sampson, the ever protector, stood up there and barked, at me. Took me forever to jump. I'd start, then stop turning around and getting away from the edge, I don’t know how many times I did that. Telling him I’d kill him if he didn’t' catch me. (I can't swim either, so that wasn’t' helping matters at all)
Sometimes, its good to have fond memories to look back on. Even if they make you confirm you made the right choice all along.
(Growl!! what is up with the spell check anymore???)
One time, for a blind date I went on a camping trip with this guy and his family. He was younger, like 4 or 5 years younger than me. I was at a particularly low point in my life and pretty vulnerable. But, I thought he was cute, I liked him, but was too shy to ask him out, so my boss did. So, it wasn't like a "blind date" in the traditional sense, but I had no clue who he was besides the works coke deliveryman.
I went to his house to meet him there and follow, and I brought my big dog Sampson with me. (Hey, I might have been semi desperate for human contact, but I wasn't stupid!!) I met the family and they were sweet, they just adored their son. We were going out early to scope the site and to set up and they'd be there a few hours behind. So, I don’t know if we took his truck or mine, but me him and Sampson packed in one of the vehicles and we talked for the hour or so that it took us to get there. This guy was sweet and smart and had a plan for his life. A good one. The problem was, he was including my dog(s) and me in that plan... and we had really just met. Kind of spooked me. ALOT. I mean, who makes plans for life so soon??
To be fair, if I had been at ANY point in my life besides where I was, I would have probably taken him up on the offer no problem, no looking back. Wasn't sure how I would have dealt with the truckers life, but I would have figured it out. Did I consider?? Heck yeah! He was smart and cute and sweet, but I wasn’t' ready for marriage again and wanted to really know all secrets before jumping into that boat. Again.
The weekend was great; I had picked out a great sleeping bag that went to -15, so no need for any other body heat than my own. And he picked a hill to pitch the tent on, put me on top of the hill, in case "I tossed or turned and fell down the hill, then I’d be close to him" lol. So funny, so sweet, nope he didn’t' try anything all weekend. Yep, we kissed, but that was all. He did help me face my fear of heights though.. I stood on top of this HIGH boulder and jumped into his arms. Waaaay down into the water below. Sampson, the ever protector, stood up there and barked, at me. Took me forever to jump. I'd start, then stop turning around and getting away from the edge, I don’t know how many times I did that. Telling him I’d kill him if he didn’t' catch me. (I can't swim either, so that wasn’t' helping matters at all)
Sometimes, its good to have fond memories to look back on. Even if they make you confirm you made the right choice all along.
(Growl!! what is up with the spell check anymore???)
Friday, February 1, 2008
Long days
Ahhh, the joys of kids! Yesterday was interesting. After a really bad weather day, it was good to get out of the house. Of course, both kids were a little under the weather, but I needed to go to a few places. Aric was supposed to have his 4 months appt, but it was rescheduled for the next day. So, off we went. First we went to the thrift store, I was hoping for a Dora toddler bed, but, they didn't have it, they were JUST getting in a toddler bed, all white, though. So, I was like whoopee, and it was mine. Then, we left there and stopped by the house, long enough to drop off the bed, and then back out again. Lizzie had fallen asleep, so I was like, that’s' ok, she needs it. She was grumpy and tired. As I was getting into the city, I got a call on my cell, seems I am a dope and forgot that I had signed up for snacks for PWOC! D'oh!! Luckily. there were only a couple of ladies there. I felt soo bad!! I didn’t' go because the kids were hacking up lungs and even though Lizzie's on an antibiotic, I didn’t' want anyone upset that she was there. Anyway, I was invited to a "play date" at McDonalds, and since I was starving, I said ok, I said the kids are sick and Lizzie's on an antibiotic. She said that's fine, so we get there, and I wake her up, grab Aric and we go in. I order lunch, Lizzie’s having a blast in the playground; I call her to come out and eat, and it takes a while, being that this is her second time in there she can't figure out how-to get out for a second. When she does, I have her squish in and give her her nuggets and ranch dressing. (Her soup, as she calls it) Everything's going fine, she drinks her chocolate milk and almost 2 chicken nuggets with lots of ranch... then it happens, one cough too much, too deep and BAM, vomit and spew all over the seat and her clothes! Ugh, what was I thinking giving her ranch... should have just stuck with the apples... blah, so we start picking it up and wiping her off and I am offered my friends’ sons' clothes... I at first declined, as he wears a 4t and Lizzie doesn't, but finally I was like, well, since she's acting normal and wanting to play, yeah, let me borrow them and get her out of the pukies. So I change her and am surprised that the biggest thing is that they're just too long, the waist isn’t' nearly as big as I thought it would be. and the shirt isn’t' that big either. She plays a little longer and then I feel its time to get out of there for our errands. I change both the kids and we leave, it’s been 2+ hours. We go to Big Lots, I’m hoping for a Dora basket organizer thing, but they only have plain, I take it. I grab a few other things as well, then it’s off to Michaels for Dora Stickers, then the Dollar Tree and then to staples (all walking with the double stroller) At this point, Lizzie has peed THROUGH her diaper and all over the front seat of the stroller. *sigh* no extra pants... I realize I am NOT going to make it to Sam’s Club for formula today, so I head towards the Wal-Mart close to home to get some mucinex for coughs. Lizzie falls asleep again. When we get to Wal-Mart, I pull the double stroller out again and put her sleeping in the back and put Aric in the front. Get through the whole store, grabbing a few things, get Aric a new car seat, as he's outgrowing his newborn one, get the stuff paid for, get ready to leave the store, after a quick stop at subway for dinner, and Lizzie wakes up. I load the kids and stuff in the car and get home. It’s been a long day.
(Sorry spell checker doesn’t' seem to be working)
(Sorry spell checker doesn’t' seem to be working)
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Wednesday.
Of course, its another lovely windy Wednesday today. was 41 this morning, now its in the 20s.. my hands are freezing and i haven't stepped outside! There should be a law that says when it is cold at all outside that houses should be warm!! not set to 72 and still freezing enough to be under two blankets, bare minimum.
Hubby has "grounded" me today, meaning that its too icky out there for me to go anywhere so i have to stay home. Oh well, so much for mail getting out today... i had hoped to get at least one package in the mail so Lizzie's buddy would have it for his birthday, but guess that isn't' happening. Sorry buddy!! I'll have it out soon, i promise!
I am very upset with myself. I had a free photobook from shutterfly from last year, and i forgot to redeem it, i finally got the motivation this week and realized it expired on the 5th.. gee, late much?? blah oh well.
Ugh, sorry, no witty remarks or anything, the wind is rattling the windows and I'm just too cold to think. The kids are sick, I'd swear Lizzie's in there coughing up a lung.. poor kiddo. One more month left with hubby.. that stinks. I love the man and these 'vacations" the military sends him on aren't easy to handle. First time, it was just me, last time, it was me and Lizzie and now its Lizzie, Aric and I... suck it up and deal, huh? Don't wanna...
Hubby has "grounded" me today, meaning that its too icky out there for me to go anywhere so i have to stay home. Oh well, so much for mail getting out today... i had hoped to get at least one package in the mail so Lizzie's buddy would have it for his birthday, but guess that isn't' happening. Sorry buddy!! I'll have it out soon, i promise!
I am very upset with myself. I had a free photobook from shutterfly from last year, and i forgot to redeem it, i finally got the motivation this week and realized it expired on the 5th.. gee, late much?? blah oh well.
Ugh, sorry, no witty remarks or anything, the wind is rattling the windows and I'm just too cold to think. The kids are sick, I'd swear Lizzie's in there coughing up a lung.. poor kiddo. One more month left with hubby.. that stinks. I love the man and these 'vacations" the military sends him on aren't easy to handle. First time, it was just me, last time, it was me and Lizzie and now its Lizzie, Aric and I... suck it up and deal, huh? Don't wanna...
Monday, January 21, 2008
Power
Ever think about the ramifications of giving a toddler some power?? For instance, when you move them from the crib to a toddler bed, do you realize the power you're putting in their hands?? You are giving them a choice to obey, a choice to disobey, in fact, you are putting power into their little grubby fingers. Some accept the power with grace and realize that its something wonderful that you've given them, a choice to go to bed when they want, while others, rub their hands together with a maniacal evil laugh, saying ha ha ha ha, i will NEVER go to bed!!
Lizzie has been swinging on that pendulum that goes from the one extreme to the other, mainly the evil laughing one lately. Nap time especially. She does get that nap, because regardless of how many times she stands at the gate to her door and yells, getout getout, she's not getting out till she gets a nap. Whether its 1 hour or 4. And, while I'm not of the mind to "break her" i am of the mind that mommy and daddy know what's best, and while she's throwing herself around crying, whether she knows its or not, she's tired. And, I'd like for her to choose to obey.
Nights seem to be getting a little better, she was asleep faster last night than the night before, nap time, not so much. Unfortunately, its not like i can take her outside to run it all off, its been really cold, rarely over 30 and more than half the time, snowy, so, i dunno, might put her in her snowsuit today to get some air. or not.
Speaking of the laugh, I just made breakfast and got her to get into her booster seat to give her some potatoes, eggs and sausage and went to eat mine. She then produced the maniacal laughter i was peaking of... Kids! lol. I wouldn't give up one mind numbing annoying second!
Lizzie has been swinging on that pendulum that goes from the one extreme to the other, mainly the evil laughing one lately. Nap time especially. She does get that nap, because regardless of how many times she stands at the gate to her door and yells, getout getout, she's not getting out till she gets a nap. Whether its 1 hour or 4. And, while I'm not of the mind to "break her" i am of the mind that mommy and daddy know what's best, and while she's throwing herself around crying, whether she knows its or not, she's tired. And, I'd like for her to choose to obey.
Nights seem to be getting a little better, she was asleep faster last night than the night before, nap time, not so much. Unfortunately, its not like i can take her outside to run it all off, its been really cold, rarely over 30 and more than half the time, snowy, so, i dunno, might put her in her snowsuit today to get some air. or not.
Speaking of the laugh, I just made breakfast and got her to get into her booster seat to give her some potatoes, eggs and sausage and went to eat mine. She then produced the maniacal laughter i was peaking of... Kids! lol. I wouldn't give up one mind numbing annoying second!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Snow
Ugh, its snowing again. Always with the snow! I cant' wait till june! I cant' believe i still have about 4 or 5 months left of the cold!! blech! So not this southerners choice for weather. I'd much prefer the warmth of the south. Or at least some place where its not cold for over half a year. I ventured out today to walmart to pick up the prints from when I got the kids pictures taken earlier this month when Lizzie and Aric's sister Meghan came to visit. I bought the CD, so i have rights to the pics and can print up as many more as i want.
Most of them came out pretty good. Now i get to mail them out to family and long lost friends. lol. I guess I need to pull out my cricut again and play with the new cartridge to make some kind of cards. Hope you are all staying warm!
My Big Girl!
Wow, looks like i've had more hits lately! Yay! Guess I had better step up my writing! lol.
After a less than impressive naptime yesterday, i decided that Lizzie gets to have the side of her crib off. Yep, Transitioning to the "toddler bed/Daybed". Now, it might seem bittersweet, but honestly, she's 2, very strongwilled and independant, it was the natural progression of things. It was a little bit before she went to sleep last night, quite a few, get back in the beds and such, but over all, she did awesomely. Same thing with nap time, once she got in the bed for sleep, she slept through the night and woke up later than her normal time! Now if we can only get potty training....
We've begun the "no's" They started yesterday or the day before, can't remember honestly, and it doesn't matter. I just would love for them to be DONE! Stubborn and Strong Willed along with the defiance is just a recipe for a mother in the looney bin, add on a teething infant and have that straight jacket ready with barely enough time to monogram my name on it!
Seriously though, It came out of NOWHERE, just suddenly refusing to do anything and everything. Doesnt' want this or that, but wants something, often coming back a little later asking for the thing that she refused, and if you happen to say ok, its only 50% if she'll eat it!
Im' still amazed. She's soo intelligent. And just a sweetheart. She loves her dad to no end and thinks he hung the moon. We're alike in that aspect. lol, he's a great guy and just hilarious when you dont' expect it. She loves me too, and her brother and sister, but that bond between her and her dad is awesome. Especially when you add in the fact that he was gone from the time she was 6 weeks till she was just after 1. Even before she was born, she was daddys girl. lol, Its amazing. Its too early to tell with Aric. He loves his dad immensely, you can tell already, and me too, daddy's there when he's having fun, but when he's tired or crabby he wants me.
*****
Ugh, its snowing again. Always with the snow! I cant' wait till june! I cant' believe i still have about 4 or 5 months left of the cold!! blech! I got some pics taken of the kids earlier this month when Lizzie and Aric's sister Meghan came to visit. I bought the CD, so i have rights to the pics and can print up as many more as i want.
After a less than impressive naptime yesterday, i decided that Lizzie gets to have the side of her crib off. Yep, Transitioning to the "toddler bed/Daybed". Now, it might seem bittersweet, but honestly, she's 2, very strongwilled and independant, it was the natural progression of things. It was a little bit before she went to sleep last night, quite a few, get back in the beds and such, but over all, she did awesomely. Same thing with nap time, once she got in the bed for sleep, she slept through the night and woke up later than her normal time! Now if we can only get potty training....
We've begun the "no's" They started yesterday or the day before, can't remember honestly, and it doesn't matter. I just would love for them to be DONE! Stubborn and Strong Willed along with the defiance is just a recipe for a mother in the looney bin, add on a teething infant and have that straight jacket ready with barely enough time to monogram my name on it!
Seriously though, It came out of NOWHERE, just suddenly refusing to do anything and everything. Doesnt' want this or that, but wants something, often coming back a little later asking for the thing that she refused, and if you happen to say ok, its only 50% if she'll eat it!
Im' still amazed. She's soo intelligent. And just a sweetheart. She loves her dad to no end and thinks he hung the moon. We're alike in that aspect. lol, he's a great guy and just hilarious when you dont' expect it. She loves me too, and her brother and sister, but that bond between her and her dad is awesome. Especially when you add in the fact that he was gone from the time she was 6 weeks till she was just after 1. Even before she was born, she was daddys girl. lol, Its amazing. Its too early to tell with Aric. He loves his dad immensely, you can tell already, and me too, daddy's there when he's having fun, but when he's tired or crabby he wants me.
*****
Ugh, its snowing again. Always with the snow! I cant' wait till june! I cant' believe i still have about 4 or 5 months left of the cold!! blech! I got some pics taken of the kids earlier this month when Lizzie and Aric's sister Meghan came to visit. I bought the CD, so i have rights to the pics and can print up as many more as i want.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Shopping with Kids
Shopping with kids...What an adventure!! some days are fine, only a rag doll (meaning, limp flopping on the ground) melt down or two, some days are heck just getting OUT the door. when these meltdowns happen in the store or anywhere, actually, i stand my ground, don't care about how embarrassed she's making me(cause really, why do i care what the person staring at me looking at me like I'm a bad mom thinks??), i refuse to be bullied.
some days when i KNOW the reason to the whining(missing nap - my fault) i will pick a toy, or let her choose one, like today. It can go one of two ways. she will play with it for a minute, tell me she "donwanit" and hand it back, then proceed to breakdown every 5 minutes. Those days, i hurry to get shopping done and get her to bed as fast as humanly possible; or she'll just talk and gibber jabber away.
Today was a missing nap day, but i needed to get groceries (what was missed last night). So, being a mom that wants her kid happy, i decided to go the toy route (which can be a hit or miss game) today it started out as a doodlebops keyboard, then the doodlebops guitar, then a backyardagins game that was too old for her, she looked at Elmo (the tmx one) and kept saying "gethimout" meaning let him out of the box. i told her only if he was bought. She didn't' want, "bye bye Elmo" then i found a Diego doll. Diego is her best friend ever (i guess in her mind) and will change her whole attitude if she's watching it or its about to come on and she gets threatened to tell Diego bye bye.
so, i see how much Diego is, not impressed with the "clearance price" so i let her hold it and we go down the "Diego/Dora" aisle. She then saw click (the camera) and Diego went bye bye fora talking camera. I tried to get her a Dora chair (she currently has spiderman) and told her that she could have it, but has to give up click. she handed me click, tried to put the chair in the cart (her brother is sideways on the cart, so no room) i turned it upside down, its now touching her head. she sees click on the shelf and is like CLICK!! and reaching. I told her its either the chair or click, and she wants click, so back goes the chair. she then cooperates the rest of the trip, puts click in the cart, looks around, then pulls it back out, puts it in, pulls it out.
she gets crabby and wants some milk. (we had been to the mall and now walmart) I didn't get her any in between stores, so i know she's thirsty, so i grab one of those in the plastic bottles and hand it to her (keeping mind on the fact that she got a different kind open last night and took off the foil!!) I finish getting what groceries i was going to get then check out, she gets her milk back, puts on her coat and we go out to the truck, i grab her sippy and fill her milk and put her in the seat. happy kiddo, happy mommy, sleeping baby.
BUT, i have to stress this, we go out shopping or somewhere all the time, so she's content most of the time , unless nap time is missed, which unfortunately, is about half the time.. at Christmas time, i put coats down and shop till she's sleeping..
some days when i KNOW the reason to the whining(missing nap - my fault) i will pick a toy, or let her choose one, like today. It can go one of two ways. she will play with it for a minute, tell me she "donwanit" and hand it back, then proceed to breakdown every 5 minutes. Those days, i hurry to get shopping done and get her to bed as fast as humanly possible; or she'll just talk and gibber jabber away.
Today was a missing nap day, but i needed to get groceries (what was missed last night). So, being a mom that wants her kid happy, i decided to go the toy route (which can be a hit or miss game) today it started out as a doodlebops keyboard, then the doodlebops guitar, then a backyardagins game that was too old for her, she looked at Elmo (the tmx one) and kept saying "gethimout" meaning let him out of the box. i told her only if he was bought. She didn't' want, "bye bye Elmo" then i found a Diego doll. Diego is her best friend ever (i guess in her mind) and will change her whole attitude if she's watching it or its about to come on and she gets threatened to tell Diego bye bye.
so, i see how much Diego is, not impressed with the "clearance price" so i let her hold it and we go down the "Diego/Dora" aisle. She then saw click (the camera) and Diego went bye bye fora talking camera. I tried to get her a Dora chair (she currently has spiderman) and told her that she could have it, but has to give up click. she handed me click, tried to put the chair in the cart (her brother is sideways on the cart, so no room) i turned it upside down, its now touching her head. she sees click on the shelf and is like CLICK!! and reaching. I told her its either the chair or click, and she wants click, so back goes the chair. she then cooperates the rest of the trip, puts click in the cart, looks around, then pulls it back out, puts it in, pulls it out.
she gets crabby and wants some milk. (we had been to the mall and now walmart) I didn't get her any in between stores, so i know she's thirsty, so i grab one of those in the plastic bottles and hand it to her (keeping mind on the fact that she got a different kind open last night and took off the foil!!) I finish getting what groceries i was going to get then check out, she gets her milk back, puts on her coat and we go out to the truck, i grab her sippy and fill her milk and put her in the seat. happy kiddo, happy mommy, sleeping baby.
BUT, i have to stress this, we go out shopping or somewhere all the time, so she's content most of the time , unless nap time is missed, which unfortunately, is about half the time.. at Christmas time, i put coats down and shop till she's sleeping..
Monday, January 14, 2008
My babies
It happened to me... the oddest thing. Yesterday, at church, i was suddenly overcome with emotions about my little guy. Other than the amount of pain, it was like i would have wanted his birth to be. When he came out, they placed him on my belly, he was this warm wet little guy so skinny. I got to rub him a bit, but due to the multiple times i was given drugs, he was sleepy and not waking fast enough. So they took him to the warming table. I kept saying, cry baby, breath, come on!! Just as they were about to give him some oxygen, he gave a sad cry, then as they rubbed him more, he got mad and gave a massive wail. The most wonderful sound a momma needs to hear.
I had asked to nurse him after he was born, so they wrapped him up and gave him back. He nursed for AN HOUR!! I should have known that he was going to be my eater. lol. Just thinking about that made me take him from my hubby and hold him tight. How precious he is!!
I didn't' get that experience with Lizzie. It was a great birth (labors suck, but the deliveries were awesome) as well, better pain control, for sure! But, they showed me to her, then took off to the NICU with her. Nope, nothing wrong with her at all, but they wanted to monitor my heart for 24 hours after i had her, which was apparently open knowledge to the staff, but not to me. So, I got to spend maybe a half hour with her total that day (later that day, when i was wheeled out of ICU to the NICU to see my baby, after i kept crying to the nurse - there was no regular nursery) And severely emotional. So, the next day when i FINALLY got her, i didn't' want to let her go ever again.
She was my "perfect" baby. But, in all honesty, i don't' think that Aric cries more or less than her, it just seems overwhelming at times because i have two trying to keep my attention.
I am thankful for both. They are my miracles. Miracles from a miracle. Yep, i was one of those babies that wasn't supposed to make it. God had other plans, and has so blessed me. Some days i just need to be reminded of that.
Have a great day!
I had asked to nurse him after he was born, so they wrapped him up and gave him back. He nursed for AN HOUR!! I should have known that he was going to be my eater. lol. Just thinking about that made me take him from my hubby and hold him tight. How precious he is!!
I didn't' get that experience with Lizzie. It was a great birth (labors suck, but the deliveries were awesome) as well, better pain control, for sure! But, they showed me to her, then took off to the NICU with her. Nope, nothing wrong with her at all, but they wanted to monitor my heart for 24 hours after i had her, which was apparently open knowledge to the staff, but not to me. So, I got to spend maybe a half hour with her total that day (later that day, when i was wheeled out of ICU to the NICU to see my baby, after i kept crying to the nurse - there was no regular nursery) And severely emotional. So, the next day when i FINALLY got her, i didn't' want to let her go ever again.
She was my "perfect" baby. But, in all honesty, i don't' think that Aric cries more or less than her, it just seems overwhelming at times because i have two trying to keep my attention.
I am thankful for both. They are my miracles. Miracles from a miracle. Yep, i was one of those babies that wasn't supposed to make it. God had other plans, and has so blessed me. Some days i just need to be reminded of that.
Have a great day!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Aric
On the note of getting older, i put Aric in the jumparoo (used to be his sisters) last night, and now, i can't get him to nap or relax, he wants to be in an upright position, so, no more papasin swing, no more laying in his chair, must be sitting up or eating. Has decided you MUST entertain him in his waking hours, and hold him in his sleeping ones.
He loves to laugh and interact with you, as well, wants to sit up, he's been working on his core ab muscles lately. If he keeps it up, he'll have a flat stomach before i do!!
He allowed me to sleep till 7am this morning, then was so fussy i just took him downstairs to give him his bottle and to watch the rest of the heart break kid. wasn't impressed. at all. didn't' realize it was a Farrelly brothers movie. oh well.
He then fell asleep on me just as i got hungry. I didn't' think to get my breakfast before i started to feed him, nor did I expect for him to just pass out hard on me either. Kids! How have i not lost weight by now?? lol. Anytime I put anyone anywhere and start to do something, someone is yelling for me. Like, i just laid Aric down and bam, the minute my butt hits the chair, he starts to cry or make the I'm going to cry sound, same thing at night, almost in bed, or worse, in bed and almost relaxed, and bam, crying. At night, i have to worry about him waking his sister, during the day, i just prefer him not to cry. if he cries and Lizzie's awake, its "he's crying baby's crying, he's crying" jumping up and down and acting like his cries energize her... *sigh* Its like a bad cartoon or sitcom...
I started sewing a quilt for Lizzie today. It has 4 inch squares and Dora in some of them and i haven't decided how big it will be, or how much of it i have. I think i might do alternating squares, its a 9 patch, but i don't think I'll have enough of them to make a decent sized blanket. Oh well, I'll figure it out, always do.
He loves to laugh and interact with you, as well, wants to sit up, he's been working on his core ab muscles lately. If he keeps it up, he'll have a flat stomach before i do!!
He allowed me to sleep till 7am this morning, then was so fussy i just took him downstairs to give him his bottle and to watch the rest of the heart break kid. wasn't impressed. at all. didn't' realize it was a Farrelly brothers movie. oh well.
He then fell asleep on me just as i got hungry. I didn't' think to get my breakfast before i started to feed him, nor did I expect for him to just pass out hard on me either. Kids! How have i not lost weight by now?? lol. Anytime I put anyone anywhere and start to do something, someone is yelling for me. Like, i just laid Aric down and bam, the minute my butt hits the chair, he starts to cry or make the I'm going to cry sound, same thing at night, almost in bed, or worse, in bed and almost relaxed, and bam, crying. At night, i have to worry about him waking his sister, during the day, i just prefer him not to cry. if he cries and Lizzie's awake, its "he's crying baby's crying, he's crying" jumping up and down and acting like his cries energize her... *sigh* Its like a bad cartoon or sitcom...
I started sewing a quilt for Lizzie today. It has 4 inch squares and Dora in some of them and i haven't decided how big it will be, or how much of it i have. I think i might do alternating squares, its a 9 patch, but i don't think I'll have enough of them to make a decent sized blanket. Oh well, I'll figure it out, always do.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Getting Older
Some days, it feels like it lasts forever, some days go as fast as air escaping out of a balloon. Time seems to speed up as you age, and to go even faster if you have a child, really fast if there is more than one. Its hard to believe that my eldest is 2 and my youngest is 3.5 months. I'll be 33 this year and hubs will be 37. Unreal! What seems more insane is the fact that in June, I will have been out of high school for 15 years!
High school was a interesting time for me. I LOVED school in all forms, couldn't' stand to be sick, cause then I'd be sent home. I wasn't popular, but not unpopular either, just average. Teachers loved me, i got along with most of everyone that i went to school with. Didn't date much in the normal sense of the word.. Didn't have a great bod, barely any boobs, but always had a nice bubble butt. lol. I guess one could call me a miss goody two shoes. But i didn't' care, about what anyone thought of me. I was who i was and that's it. That was me, sometimes i wish it still was. But for me, as i got older, i cared more and more about what people think.
So much so, it changed me, my personality, even my core self. Every now and then, I'd realize it, and try to change back, but life has, for the most part, changed me and shaped me to be who I am today, like me or not, love me or leave me. My ex made me a weakling, till i finally stood up and started to take my life back, then he was done with me. I was definitely better off, then i made a bad decision, with my next relationship, but at least i got a great friend out of it. Now days, I am close to that person some days and far others, which is not a bad thing, if we don't' grow and change, then we're not learning.
This year besides taking more time for my family, quality time, and loosing weight, i resolve to write more. I am hoping that using this as a creative outlet, then it will loosen up my creative block i've had going on for years.
High school was a interesting time for me. I LOVED school in all forms, couldn't' stand to be sick, cause then I'd be sent home. I wasn't popular, but not unpopular either, just average. Teachers loved me, i got along with most of everyone that i went to school with. Didn't date much in the normal sense of the word.. Didn't have a great bod, barely any boobs, but always had a nice bubble butt. lol. I guess one could call me a miss goody two shoes. But i didn't' care, about what anyone thought of me. I was who i was and that's it. That was me, sometimes i wish it still was. But for me, as i got older, i cared more and more about what people think.
So much so, it changed me, my personality, even my core self. Every now and then, I'd realize it, and try to change back, but life has, for the most part, changed me and shaped me to be who I am today, like me or not, love me or leave me. My ex made me a weakling, till i finally stood up and started to take my life back, then he was done with me. I was definitely better off, then i made a bad decision, with my next relationship, but at least i got a great friend out of it. Now days, I am close to that person some days and far others, which is not a bad thing, if we don't' grow and change, then we're not learning.
This year besides taking more time for my family, quality time, and loosing weight, i resolve to write more. I am hoping that using this as a creative outlet, then it will loosen up my creative block i've had going on for years.
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