And more old MYSPACE Blog posts Dec 12, 2006 bah humbug!! Current mood:anxious people suck!! i am not gone for over 4 hours when i get home and it had been broken into and robbed!! Long story short, why are people such brats??? Im' just sick to my stomach.... ugh... Dec 14, 2006 a little more info.... Current mood:hopeful yeah, so they took alot of our stuff... they did find my laptop, but of course, someone HAD to drop it in the water, so it no longer works.. So i have to take it and see if it can be fixed. *sigh* Nothing else has been recovered.. and of course, everyone wants lists.... How am I supposed to know what 300 dvds they stole??? ugh... and the PS2 games?? sheesh... ugh... those people suck! So anyway... just waiting to hear from the police, the insurance company and the rental company. ugh... Well, the GOOD news is that my friend Bri had her baby!!! yay!! congrats bri, and welcome sara!!! woo hoo!!!! AND, we got orders!! woo hoo!! going up north! I've never lived in new england. New York, here we come!! yay!! i'm very excited, if you cant' tell!! AND, its less than a month till my honey comes home!! yay!!! I cant' wait!! its been the longest year EVER!! And that is all i have, i believe.. Really wish i could reorder my blog!!

And more OLD MYSPACE blog posts Nov 17, 2006 11 months today!!! Current mood:thoughtful Lizzie is 11 months old!!! 1 month till she is a year old!! Its amazing how time can fly in one part of your life and be so slow in another. Happy 11 months to Lizzie!!! Nov 25 2006 Two MORE!!!! Current mood:bouncy New Teeth!! We've got NEW TEETH!! yay. two more bottom teeth, up to 8 FINALLY! Dec 5, 2006 feeling crappy Current mood:lonely Its been a little bit since i've blogged last. Had a holiday reciepe party last friday morning. had a bunch of people RSVP, but only 3 showed and only 2 stayed a bit. I had been up late and up early cleaning. Lizzie started to get a runny nose and congestion last week. then she started with a barking sounding cough. Then I started to get sick as well. I have a stuffy/runny nose and cough. At the docs, i get diagnosed with sinusitus and lizzie gets diagnosed with.... NOTHING. she doesn't cough, her nose doesn't run or anything!! i'm like it was that this morning.... 20 minutes later, gee imagine that, its back!! ugh SO, now i get to be sick while lizzies fine.. ugh... i am sooo stressed out!! I feel like I just need a break and lizzies just full of energy!! i gave her spagetti o's she must be like me(hates them), cause she threw them everywhere but in her mouth... stinking messes!! my back hurts, and i just feel like crap and just wanna go to bed.. but once i'm in bed, then the blues begin. I miss my honey. I miss him being here, I miss his smile, the twinkle in his eye, all of him. I miss his arms around me and his lips on mine. i have 30 days left, and it just seems like forever!! Lizzie has less than 2 weeks before she'll be one, less than that till her first birthday party.. i've invited quite a few people.. i know that stacy and her family will come, will anyone else? UGH i hate stressing over things i have no control over!! this friday night, i'm hosting game night for the married women group i'm involved in.. i wonder how it will go Looks like there are only 4 yes' and 2 maybe's.... oh well, it seems like anytime I do anything at my house that hardly any people show. And I hate hate hate hate hate the thought of being alone for christmas. I miss my hubby and I hate to spend another holiday with out him. It just doesnt' seem right. Nothing is as good as it could have been without him. And yeah, he's not much on doing anything but, we have each other. I just feel extra alone this year. Everyone seems soo busy and wrapped up in their stuff that i feel like an intruder calling. I spend most nights home alone. Its almost like I only hear from people returning my calls or the ones i made. I really am tired of crying. and being alone. Its like last time, only worse, you look like crap and people are just like, oh its cause the kid wore you out. And people dont' want to KNOW how you're REALLY doing, it makes them uncomfortable. So, you suck it up the best you can, you cope however you can, you try to keep everything as normal as possible as comfortable as possible, cause change makes you nervous. And you try to talk to the one you love, and it always comes out wrong, they end up taking it the wrong way and then you're left frustrated and upset, then come more tears. Sometimes it feels like you should give up. But you can't as, that's not what you should do, not how you are, so you just buck up and try not to say the wrong thing. well, i need to go check o lizzie, she's not making much noise and she's there with unwrapped presents... And make sure i dont' try to rip my toe off jumping over the gate.

Yet more OLD blogs from MYSPACE Nov 7, 2006 stomache bug Current mood:crappy well, supposedly lizzies ear infection is over. I finally got seen last night and i have a stomache bug. that consists of naseua, puking and the runs. woopie... i feel like crap, slept almost 12 hours last night and still feel like crap. I had called for someone to look after lizzie, but then she puked this morning and had one bout of runs in her diaper, so i called and cancelled.. now i dont' know what to do. Lizzie ate a good breakfast and has seemed fine... I need to go back to bed, but dnt' want to sleep with her up and running around. I was so out last night i didnt' hear my cell phone ring.. i had a missed call from my friend jeannie. dont' get sick with this, it sucks!! Nov 8, 2006 Our poor baby Current mood:drained well, i am doing better *it seems* but lizzie woke up puking and pooping again. Poor baby. her little booty has to be on fire. I am exhausted, didnt' get much sleep last night. She did, but didnt wake up pleasantly. her sheets and mattress cover are in the washer again. ok, think i might give her a bath. Nov 14, 2006 update Current mood:contemplative well, kiddo is done puking *i pray* but she still has the runs. I'm not getting much sleep and am getting really frustrated, today she had 3 blow outs.... ugh.. that's just alot for such a little girl. I miss my hubby so much. He's my dream guy, and what i want. I love him more now than i did when we got married. I hate that he's so far away, but i respect his job and know that its a necessity. I get down alot lately, I need the motivation to continue doing the things i need to do. Supposed to be hosting a partylite party on saturday, i need to get everythign set up for that. figure out what snacks to make. I want to decorate for christmas before the party, so that way its done and i dont have to worry about it later. Thanksgiving is next week, i cant' belive how time is flying, but, it seems like the closer it gets to hubby coming home that the longer the days seem. I invited people over for thanksgivign adn i haven't heard anything, (except from you bri, i dont' expect you to haul your preggo butt back up here two weekends in a row!!) I bought a ham, i hope someone comes. (really wish the most important person was able to be here, I love you Kevin!!) Other than being sick, Lizzie is doing well, getting bigger and bigger!! Such a crack up! she loves to make me laugh. always doing something to make sure i laugh. I see her daddy in her and when she's making me laugh, i feel like he is. oh well, let me get off here, maybe, just maybe, i'll get to bed at a decent time tonight. Joy and Peace to you all!!!

Again, OLD blogs from MYSPACE Oct 30, 2006 My trip thus far... Current mood:cheerful well, we're halfway though our vacation. we had horrible times getting out of town, but we made it FINALLY, 5 hours late! oh well. I got to see my cousin and aunt, whom i haven't seen in YEARS, so that was awesome. Went to Disney last wednesday, it was a blast!! well, actually, we went to Disneyland and California Adventure. I can't post pics yet, but I will as soon as i can ! Thursday we went to the pumkin patch, it was cute, we missed the hayride though, so that kind of sucked(my fault, takes me forever to get ready for some reason lately), but other than that, Lizzie had a blast and Lance did as well, so that is what it was for! Had a restful morning on friday, then we went to the mall and out to dinner. great day! i got my eyebrows done, in a thing called threading. they used thread to get your eyebrows off, weird, huh? took like NO time. Saturday we went to universal and saw a little less than half. Lance gets overstimulated easy and needed his nap early. Sunday we went to an air show, i was concerned about Lizzie and how she would do, she did well, so that was good. It was nice, but it made me miss my sweet hubby so much (love you honey!!) So, that was the first week, not bad, going going going. But that's what vacations are all about!! Have a great week and happy Halloween!!!!! November 3, 2006 aaack, the week is almost over!!! Current mood:drained well, my time is almost over here in So. Cal. I have had a blast!! Thank you so much to Ally and Tariq sorry that time couldn't have been longer and Lois-Lynn, you are awesome! Okay, so i've uploaded *almost* all of my pics to 3 photo albums, here is the link: http://photos.yahoo.com/angeltazcuddy Take your time, there are like 800 some odd pics. Tomorrow is our flight, just two, not three, so that's "better" i guess. Lizzie is such a squirmy worm lately, not sure how we'll do! She's almost done with her meds for an ear infection, but i'm not sure its gone... there aren't any posts nearby, closest one is almost 2 hours away.... Just wanted to say hi and let ya know i'll be home soon. Have a great weekend!! Nov 6, 2006 sick Current mood:sick just wanted to say i'm sick. woke up this morning, made a phone call for lizzies dr appt and of course they had no one to see her, but said she needs to be seen, i can go to er or wait for the night clinic to open, i chose the latter ate cereal and went to bed. i woke up feeling really hot and very naseus. i finally puked a few hours later adn it was breakfast... still feel icky, puked again.. now i get to drive like this! uck.

Continuing my OLD MYSPACE blog retrieval. I wish we could reorder the blog posts so these older ones would be listed first... oh well. Oct 10, 2006 Blessings Current mood:grateful With all the things that go wrong and can go wrong in your life, remember all the blessings you have. no matter how big or small, there are tons, from the moment you wake up, to the time you go to sleep, they are there. Breath, life, love, joy, peace, family, friends, things you have, they are all blessings. Take a deep breath and say a prayer of thanks. Look at a loved one, an email from a loved one, and smile, you are loved and looked out for. God is there, dont' ever deny it. Bless someone today. Oct 20, 2006 Stressing! Current mood:anxious Ever have one of those days, when its like, oh man, am i gonna get to sit down any time soon?? I got up early, cause i forgot to take the trash out last night and i can't have a full trash can. So, got up early, took the trash out for the trash people and now am getting ready to make a home movie for hubby. He called last night (thank you sweetie!) and made my day. Apparently locked Taz in the computer room, Little knucklehead. no damage, he survived till i got up, it was only 5 hours or so that he was locked in there. Still got Lizzies costume to cut out and sew.. arrrgghh, stupid computer has been taking up so much time! I *think* its working. Seems to be. So, we'll see! I have my friends graduation today, yay!! She's come a long way, graduating from the police academy. I get to pick up Meg tonight, so i'm happy to get to see her again. I still have to get the house clean and finished. blah. So, let me go, have a great weekend everyone!!! Oct 20, 2006 Just saying hi Current mood:calm I am in CA right now, just chilling out. Just wanted to say hi and say i'm not sure how often i can get on line. I hope everyone has a great week!!!!