Today, well, when i finally go to sleep and wake up, is the date for the Sweat test. Very daunting for a 3 month old to have to have a test for a bigger persons problem. yes, i know, if he has it, he has it, but its still alot on his, now very chubby, shoulders.
I found myself crying today. Just nothing at all I can do about it. period. So, i do what i can, i push forward and pray for the best. I put him in God's more than capable hands and trust. Trust that my only son is fine. Trust that i can hold up under the pressure. Believe that God will hold me up. I know he will. Heck, i WAS that kid who had test after test after test on, only to have the docs tell my mom that my prognosis wasn't good, I wouldn't' survive. So, I suppose, why should i think I'm above that? Sometimes, we're allowed to go through the crap so we can have the blessings.
We all have our tests of some sort. All of them impact, some just a little bit more. Sometimes we forget that we're not here just to look out and worry about ourselves, so we get a kick in the butt in the form of a test. Some days, i wonder, if I'm haveing a test right now, how would i score?
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
My Cats
Cats are the oddest creatures. you don't' see them all day long, then suddenly bam, you're sleeping and they're in your face, on your legs, in your lap, or any other million of ways they can be a bother to you when you're trying to sleep.
Mine used to sleep on my head when they were babies, but one is 16lbs and the other is 12lbs. that's a lot of weight on your head.
Taz, the male, loved to "give biscuits" in my hair when he was a baby, and i swear he tried sucking on my hair. I'd wake up in the morning and i would have the biggest rats nest in my hair, and it just a little damp. Angel, my female, liked to snuggle at my back close as she could get, and when i would wake up in the morning, i was so terrified that she was squished or smothered, but she just slept really deep.
they turned 7 this year. they've mellowed out some, but they have their moments when you think they are still kittens. When Angel was little she'd suddenly have this burst of energy and fly all over the house, run up the curtains and touch the vaulted ceiling and be fine. Taz would suddenly spaz and turn around quick and see where he was just sitting at, then do it again, and again and again, like he had sat on something that poked him. lol. Such characters!
Mine used to sleep on my head when they were babies, but one is 16lbs and the other is 12lbs. that's a lot of weight on your head.
Taz, the male, loved to "give biscuits" in my hair when he was a baby, and i swear he tried sucking on my hair. I'd wake up in the morning and i would have the biggest rats nest in my hair, and it just a little damp. Angel, my female, liked to snuggle at my back close as she could get, and when i would wake up in the morning, i was so terrified that she was squished or smothered, but she just slept really deep.
they turned 7 this year. they've mellowed out some, but they have their moments when you think they are still kittens. When Angel was little she'd suddenly have this burst of energy and fly all over the house, run up the curtains and touch the vaulted ceiling and be fine. Taz would suddenly spaz and turn around quick and see where he was just sitting at, then do it again, and again and again, like he had sat on something that poked him. lol. Such characters!
SNOW and other things
Okay, so yes, I live UP north.. Yes, WAY up north. But i am not from here, and i am NOT, i repeat, not a fan of snow. its cold, its wet, and gets everywhere. the chill gets to your bone. blah. Add kids to that and bam, its a recipe for freezing something off.
My little lady's birthday is today. since i already wrote on it, i wont' say much about it, but that people suck.. Our neighbors were supposed to come over to celebrate with us and not only didn't they show, but they didn't' call either, so after I made the time to fit their schedule (Friday night!) and ordered 30 dollars worth of pizza, they didn't call, walk over or anything to let us know they changed their mind from yesterday and were now, in fact, not coming. Talk about glad your kid is too young to understand!! I was highly upset and sad that her 2nd birthday was just ruined. But, since she had no clue, i wasn't going to change anything i was going to do (except the game playing, since Kevin is just not into games at all). She had a blast, and with just a few breakdowns, like when she had to stop playing with her new toys to eat her cake, or blow out her candles, it was a success.
I love to sew, i finally have been sewing lately. And i sold some bibs!! I'm so excited!! I am making someone else some aprons, so i guess i sold them too! yay! I make blankets, all kinds, from the "cheating(easy) ones" of fleece to the quilts, I can make outfits, bibs, aprons, gift bags, etc. I love to sew and make things for people that appreciate it. And if someone wants to buy it, then woot woot to that too!
As i sit here first thing in the morning, sponge bob on the TV, yes, sponge bob, i realize how blessed i am with everything. 2 gorgeous kids, a wonderful hubby, 2 sweet kitties, a place to live, heat, food in the fridge. Thank God for blessings!
My little lady's birthday is today. since i already wrote on it, i wont' say much about it, but that people suck.. Our neighbors were supposed to come over to celebrate with us and not only didn't they show, but they didn't' call either, so after I made the time to fit their schedule (Friday night!) and ordered 30 dollars worth of pizza, they didn't call, walk over or anything to let us know they changed their mind from yesterday and were now, in fact, not coming. Talk about glad your kid is too young to understand!! I was highly upset and sad that her 2nd birthday was just ruined. But, since she had no clue, i wasn't going to change anything i was going to do (except the game playing, since Kevin is just not into games at all). She had a blast, and with just a few breakdowns, like when she had to stop playing with her new toys to eat her cake, or blow out her candles, it was a success.
I love to sew, i finally have been sewing lately. And i sold some bibs!! I'm so excited!! I am making someone else some aprons, so i guess i sold them too! yay! I make blankets, all kinds, from the "cheating(easy) ones" of fleece to the quilts, I can make outfits, bibs, aprons, gift bags, etc. I love to sew and make things for people that appreciate it. And if someone wants to buy it, then woot woot to that too!
As i sit here first thing in the morning, sponge bob on the TV, yes, sponge bob, i realize how blessed i am with everything. 2 gorgeous kids, a wonderful hubby, 2 sweet kitties, a place to live, heat, food in the fridge. Thank God for blessings!
Friday, December 14, 2007
My little Lizzie turning 2
Tonight is my daughters 2nd birthday party. I can't believe it.. time is flying. Her actual birthday isn't' until Monday, but its close enough. wow.. Seems so unreal... almost like i closed my eyes to blink or to breathe and BAM! she grew another year. She's so smart and just a little firecracker... a live wire.. She'll wear you out in a New York Minute and you never saw it coming.. I just love her to death, regardless of her running me ragged at every twist and turn or whether she tests me and tries me with every blink of her beautiful eyes.
I feel so blessed to have her and her brother. They are definitely answered prayers, and even though i have to remind myself of that at times, i really am thankful and love them so much.
Now, if the weather would just warm up, I'd be truly happy, he he.
I feel so blessed to have her and her brother. They are definitely answered prayers, and even though i have to remind myself of that at times, i really am thankful and love them so much.
Now, if the weather would just warm up, I'd be truly happy, he he.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
My first blog
I haven't written in what seems like forever. I used to write every single day. I have a few unfinished novels, which I still plan to finish, as soon as i can get motivated to do something other than surf my two favorite sites.
My name is Callie and I'm a mom of two. They are the lights of my life and just plain miracles. Lizzie is almost 2 and Aric is almost 3 months. I am very thankful to my hubby Kevin for them. I have pretty much all that I've wanted since i was a small child (minus the novels finished) I am a stay at home mom, i have a son and i have a daughter. And the most wonderful man in the world. Sexy, gorgeous and just a sweetie. The most sexy eyes you could just fall into. *sigh*
We met one night at a bowling alley, one of those cosmic bowling nights, where they turn the lights off and turn the blacklights on. Pretty much from the moment i laid my eyes on him, i was hooked. Just couldnt 'believe he was interested in me at all. I mean, I was divorced, living at home and just (in my eyes) nothing special. He made me feel special and loved.
A few months (YES, 4 to be exact) we were married and the military moved us from KY to Germany.. more on that later, then to NC.. later as well, and now we are in NY.
NY.. not what i expected at all. Kind of hustle and bustle, but on a smaller scale. Everyone so far has kept to themself, i'm slowly making friends. Mainly farmlands around us. We are WAAAY up north, just 30 miles to Canada. Got our first snow around thanksgiving. Its cold, i'm over it. he he. Not sure what i expected being here, just not this. I knew the snow would come, and keep coming far into spring, but I dunno. I was determined to hate it, then determined to love it, then determined to put up iwth it, but now i'm just liek, eh, its ok.
I know one thing that's colored how I feel about it is i was pregnant when we moved here and had trouble with the OBs not wanting to see me here, insisting i travel an hour away to deliver there. One thing after another, and i finally gave in.
Now that he's here on the outside, i have to deal with a scarey newborn screening positive test result. Get a voice mail one day, Mrs. C, Aric's newborn screening came back and we need to discuss this with you. Well, i finally get someone to talk to me the next day, when they tell me that his newborn screening came back with a genetic mutation that is a marker for Cystic Fibrosis. We havent' told our families, hub's just not wanting them to worry i guess, but i hate not telling them. The sweat test is 2 days after christmas. Aric will be 3 months old then. They didnt' say at first, but finally told me a few weeks ago that the chances of him having it are like 4%, much better than just dropping a bomb in a moms lap and giving NO information, except that you can get seen for it in 2 months.
I haven't done much research on it, as you can get a lot of scarey info out there on the web, but the big "red flag" for it is failure to thrive... i dont' think my little man fits that category at all. He's almost doubled his birth weight, his 2 month appt showed that he was 13lbs 8oz and 23 inches long, 4 inches longer than at birth. Other than occasional eating too much, he's perfectly normal. Tries to hold his head up well, and has been for a month and a half(yes, really since 1 month old) pushes up with his legs, like he's trying to stand, gigles, coos and smiles. All the things a 2.5 month old should be doing. So, i'm worried, but not worried. He's my little miracle. And i trust and beleive that he's fine.
My name is Callie and I'm a mom of two. They are the lights of my life and just plain miracles. Lizzie is almost 2 and Aric is almost 3 months. I am very thankful to my hubby Kevin for them. I have pretty much all that I've wanted since i was a small child (minus the novels finished) I am a stay at home mom, i have a son and i have a daughter. And the most wonderful man in the world. Sexy, gorgeous and just a sweetie. The most sexy eyes you could just fall into. *sigh*
We met one night at a bowling alley, one of those cosmic bowling nights, where they turn the lights off and turn the blacklights on. Pretty much from the moment i laid my eyes on him, i was hooked. Just couldnt 'believe he was interested in me at all. I mean, I was divorced, living at home and just (in my eyes) nothing special. He made me feel special and loved.
A few months (YES, 4 to be exact) we were married and the military moved us from KY to Germany.. more on that later, then to NC.. later as well, and now we are in NY.
NY.. not what i expected at all. Kind of hustle and bustle, but on a smaller scale. Everyone so far has kept to themself, i'm slowly making friends. Mainly farmlands around us. We are WAAAY up north, just 30 miles to Canada. Got our first snow around thanksgiving. Its cold, i'm over it. he he. Not sure what i expected being here, just not this. I knew the snow would come, and keep coming far into spring, but I dunno. I was determined to hate it, then determined to love it, then determined to put up iwth it, but now i'm just liek, eh, its ok.
I know one thing that's colored how I feel about it is i was pregnant when we moved here and had trouble with the OBs not wanting to see me here, insisting i travel an hour away to deliver there. One thing after another, and i finally gave in.
Now that he's here on the outside, i have to deal with a scarey newborn screening positive test result. Get a voice mail one day, Mrs. C, Aric's newborn screening came back and we need to discuss this with you. Well, i finally get someone to talk to me the next day, when they tell me that his newborn screening came back with a genetic mutation that is a marker for Cystic Fibrosis. We havent' told our families, hub's just not wanting them to worry i guess, but i hate not telling them. The sweat test is 2 days after christmas. Aric will be 3 months old then. They didnt' say at first, but finally told me a few weeks ago that the chances of him having it are like 4%, much better than just dropping a bomb in a moms lap and giving NO information, except that you can get seen for it in 2 months.
I haven't done much research on it, as you can get a lot of scarey info out there on the web, but the big "red flag" for it is failure to thrive... i dont' think my little man fits that category at all. He's almost doubled his birth weight, his 2 month appt showed that he was 13lbs 8oz and 23 inches long, 4 inches longer than at birth. Other than occasional eating too much, he's perfectly normal. Tries to hold his head up well, and has been for a month and a half(yes, really since 1 month old) pushes up with his legs, like he's trying to stand, gigles, coos and smiles. All the things a 2.5 month old should be doing. So, i'm worried, but not worried. He's my little miracle. And i trust and beleive that he's fine.
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