Just a Thank You

My hero my love,
Just wanted to post a quick thank you to you, my hero. Our short time together was bittersweet. I cant' wait till you are home for good and not just a quick "rest". I love you and I pray for your safety and the safety of everyone there. I pray that your travel was uneventful and that you get to your destination safely. I love you and already miss you more than i can express. Your visit meant the world to me and the kids and whenever you can be home, whether one hour or one year or forever, we want it. Sending love and kisses from me and the kids to you every second.
Love you always Your adoring wife,
me.

Suprises

Once again, and absence! sorry about that, i couldn't' post what i wanted to earlier, cause i didn't' know if any family read this blog and i didn't' want to ruin the surprise for my ILs. Hubby came home for R & R and we drove up to surprise them (they were expecting the kids and me) Well, the surprise was wonderful, made them all cry. :-D I was worried that they would figure it out, but no one did so that was great.

Got to spend time with his other daughter too, she's just awesome. The kids love spending time with her. He had fun surprising her as well. Went to some really neat places on our "mini" vacation. One of the best things that we got to do (done by America Supports you, Seats for Soldiers and the Red Sox) was get to see the Red Sox play. It was awesome, the seats provided just were sooo great! I don't' think i could have asked for better tickets.


Seriously!! how great are those! Ticket holders gave up their seats for soldiers and their families to go to the game free. There was even a person that came and took our orders and everything, it was really cool. This was my second game, the first time was in 05, i was pregnant with my daughter and we stood in SRO seating (standing room only).


Pennants

Nice View of the Green Monster

Don't' they do the coolest designs in the grass?

Don't laugh at me or call me a geek but this is something i thought was cool:

They came out with little boards and "flattened" out the sand and made it all pretty again, LOL. Yeah, I'm a silly person, but i didn't notice it last time i went and they don't' show that on TV normally (not that i watch alot of sports on TV) and i thought it was nifty. :D
Close up.

The bull pen percussion section. (love that jolly roger!!)


they beat on the overhang and who knows what else and drum out songs, its really cool. :-)

Needless to say, we had a blast.
Here are hubs and I posing after it was clear that the red sox had kicked butt!

From red sox

if you click on the TEENY TINY red sox link, you can see the rest of the pics from the game.

Truly awesome what they did for us. For my hubby, my hero, my heart.

Thank you, America Supports You and The Boston Red Sox, and the Seats for Soldiers campaign. We appreciate your generosity!

wow 3 weeks, huh??

Sorry, i didn't realize it'd been over 3 weeks since i posted last. Well, it makes sense. the dreaded sickness hit us JUST as it was getting nice!! stupid bronchitis with Lizzie then on to the upper respiratory infections from Aric and I and then my sinus infection and Lizzie's upper respiratory infection, followed up by another sinus infection from me. YES all in the last 3 weeks.. sick huh? lol.

We are all doing mostly better. apparently, my sinus junk is allergy related, or at least whatever it is, claritin D helps it. lol.

Kids are doing good. Aric learned how to crawl and sit himself up last week and then today he pulled himself up to standing! So smart and soo determined! lol.

Lizzie is just too smart for words! and she's got soo many words! WHEN she listens to you, she shows how big her intelligence is.

Me, i'm ok, down 10 lbs. so i'm very happy about that!

Get Smart!

Get Smart - SO totally worth seeing!! Stars Steve Carell and Anne Hathaway.

It was really good, surprisingly since it seems they have to change something that works well.. I don't' know that its too far off from the original sitcom.

I need to get those on DVD... lol and I'd love to see if they'd do a remake of the nude bomb!! although ALOT more would be shown..... not sure how i feel about that. lol

new movie

Just saw Sex in the City. It wasnt' my first choice, wasnt' really in my top 100 of movies to see. But i went with a friend. And i was suprised. It was very good, there was typical sex in the city stuff, lots of gratutious sex scenes, but overall a really good movie. Definately a chick flick. Its one of those that can be seen on the big screen or a tv, its up to you, nothing magical by seeing it on the big screen.

Standing up on your own with help.

Sometimes, we focus on so many little things that we forget the big picture, and everything else. Life becomes so busy and stressful that we focus on that and not on what makes us happy. I am blessed to have a wonderfully sexy and smart and sweet husband that loves me and that i love so very much. Then i got doubly blessed with my two sweet kids. Life sucks sometimes, circumstances suck, but we cant' take our eyes off our blessings or the one who gives them.

I have been focusing on everything but my blessings and the blessing giver. And that screwed me up, my thoughts, my focus, everything was skewed. Sometimes we just need a reminder of our many many blessings. Blessings that would kill me to have taken away cause i was ignoring them or not giving them the attention that they deserve. by not focusing and counting my blessings, i ultimately hurt myself.

I just want to say that I am so very thankful for my blessings, my family, my life. Life is something we take waay too much for granted. Sometimes we look and only see "death and destruction" when we just want to wallow in the mud. Its when we finally look up and realize that the focus is wrong.

Yeah, I'm talking in circles. its my random musings. ;)

I am so thankful for that man that lays down his life and goes off to put it out there, if needed for someone else. For the man that isn't' afraid to stand up and serve. My husband, my soldier, my love. I am so very proud of him, and just am in awe of him. 3 times to leave everything that is "comfortable", home, and his family, not by his choice, but makes it his choice to be a soldier.

I try, sometimes its not my best, sometimes i just suck at being a mom and wife to my kids and hubby. but i cant' just let life toss me about, way too nauseating. :-D I used to stand on my feet (with help) but i took myself out of the helping arms of God to just "do it myself" and wallow in feeling sorry for myself. How selfish of me. So very selfish. I am very ashamed of that. My family comes first, period. Not me. Time to get off my tush and be who i am supposed to be.

Sometimes, little things can make you evaluate your life and change, sometimes you have to go through hell and back before you decide to change. I prefer not to go through that.

Honey, i love you so very much, thank you for your service, thank you for being the man you are. I cant' wait to see you again. I miss you.

A Movie- lol

Kung Fu Panda - Take the kids you wont' be disappointed. I went in with less than desire to see this, but since i didnt' take Lizzie to see Horton Hears a Who (which i enjoyed very much) I decided since she wanted to see "panda mommy panda" that we would. We went to the 1145 showing and that was perfect. she got popcorn and her milk and she moved about halfway through the movie to the seat beside me from the double stroller, and sat enthralled. Yes, i heard the Tiger mommy, Monkey mommy, Snake mommy, Look mommy a panda, etc. but she wasnt' loud and i was soo very impressed with her. Aric fussed a little at the beginning, got his bottle, spit alot of it up and then took a nap.

More Movies.

National Treasure Book of Secrets. I really enjoyed this movie, its on dvd now. Continues where the old one left off.

The Time Machine. Guy Pearce is the main character. It was good as well, and very enjoyable.

Yeah, sorry, no big reviews, my brain is saying go to sleep.

Teeth! and other updates

We finally have teeth! 2 in a day! He won't let me see if there are more, but i have seen 2, i know that several were trying to break through at the same time, so its just a waiting game.

My little guy finally has some teeth! 8 months.. later than i figured he'd get them. But it started, and i hope and pray that the others aren't as much trouble as these first two were.

Aside from the not wanting to eat much at all, both kids seem to be doing good. Bronchitis has left us finally. Hoping that it stays away. 2 year olds and nebulizers don't mix well.

Lizzie is flourishing in her toddler program and always wants to "play with kids" no matter what time of day it is anytime that she gets bored or we pass a playground.

Sun still isn't' out in full force yet, weather is starting to get a little warmer, but with the rain and clouds and COLD its not feeling like almost summer at all. its 1 step warmer 2 steps colder. Eventually, I'm sure.

Still working on my scrap booking swaps, completed another one tonight and hope to finish up at least 2 before Friday.

Still doing my weight loss challenge. Finally found some motivation to exercise, wish i would have been doing it all along. Still snacking too much here and there. Have changed a hair in size, not noticeable, but no real change on the scale. Hoping that the size and weight starts to drop.

Miss my sweet sweet man so very much. I can't wait to see him again. The kids miss him too, and always react positively when its "daddy time" on TV. Aric just stares transfixed as his daddy reads him stories, and gives big smiles.

We are getting a few babbles and such for now, i have heard Dada mo ma and more garbley gook, but its just trying out sounds, not really saying words. YET.

Looking forward to spending time with my girls this summer. I hope it goes wonderfully awesome and smooth.

Also looking forward to seeing family. Its always nice to see family.

up way too late.

Change

Change is hard. Change can be good or bad. Change sucks. Change is hard. That's my thoughts on change. In saying that, i have to change. I have to change how i am or i wont' fare well in the future.

I'm overweight. Quite a bit overweight. Have been for some years now. 20lbs ago, it didn't bother me, but you add on those and it weighs heavily on me. (no puns intended) The more i weigh, the less i want to do anything about it. I see the scale go up, and i get discouraged, more depressed.. I see it go down and i get hope.

I eat too much.. I eat when I'm bored, i eat when I'm not. I eat when I'm sad, i eat when I'm happy. I eat when I'm relaxing i eat when I'm busy. Point is, i eat. Doesn't matter what it is, most of the time, its not even cause it tastes good. Its there. Food can be a buddy. Food doesn't judge you, food doesn't tell you you're fat. Its just there, waiting to give you nourishment and comfort. Sometimes not either. 2 weeks ago, i started eating less. No exercise yet, so to speak. Nothing that is consistent, nothing that has stuck.

See, I'm afraid. Afraid of failing. Afraid of change. Mostly just afraid i will fail. And i have and do constantly. I think i sabotage myself. Tell myself that it doesn't' matter, but it does. Between the Hashimotos and my heart, it does matter a whole lot. And still I'm afraid and i let that stop me. Its why i stopped writing blogs lately, its why i don't' exercise. I say I'm just lazy, but its more than that. When i write, its part of me. Something inside of me that i release. I love to write and i miss it so terribly much. So why don't i? Fear. Apparently, i have a lot of fear.

I hate to be alone. And no I'm not "alone" in the physical sense. My kids are here, but its not the same. You can't really talk to a toddler or an infant and get back what you need from your spouse. And you can't really expect your friends to give you that kind of support and love that your husband can. And even though i know I'm loved and i know I'm missed, its still hard. I'm afraid of telling my husband that I'm even doing a weight loss challenge, much less two of them, i don't' want to fail in his eyes. I don't' want to seem weak. (yes, i know my thoughts are all over the place, i flip when i can't go on about a subject for a bit) I don't' want to disappoint the man who left me in charge of everything. He had no choice in the matter, when the army says go, you go. And i know he'll be home "soon" everyone has a different definition of that word.

Back to change. Life throws you curve balls. And i believe that life is allowed to, so we can learn. I should have learned by now, that doing nothing but eating myself silly isn't' working. And in order to change, you have to want to. Have the desire to. So, i am going to make the change. I wont' always do what i hope to, i will fail a few times, but i cant' let it stand in the way of continuing what i need to do. I need to be healthy, and in order to be healthy, i need to loose the weight and get in shape, for my kids, my husband and myself.